I want to find a way back here, back to writing here, because sometimes the loneliness could literally eat me up inside. I think the online arena can become viscious and petty at times, but only if you allow it to. I miss feeling connected to people. I've opened my journal up a bit; some entries are still under lock & key, but for the most part, ( Read more... )

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“Happy Devil Day!” A security guard said this to me as I walked into the building this morning and a woman sshed him and said that she would say a prayer for him later. I looked over at him and simply had to laugh. Today is supposedly the day of Satan and everyone seems to be on edge. Andres said that one of his co-workers actually began to cry ( Read more... )

A man named Paul sat next to me in my cubicle earlier. We were having what we called a 'heart to heart', when really he was hiding from his boss. Something he said, though, made me look up from my mountain of paperwork. It was as if he sensed the chaos inside of me. "There are only three seconds in life, you know. Past, present, future. You have to ( Read more... )

What is the difference between being a bad person and being a good person who does bad things? Are they one in the same, or is there no such thing as ‘good’ and ‘bad’ and is everything we do simply just a decision? These are the questions that struck me as I was driving last Friday, so much so that I felt the need to pull over on the side of the ( Read more... )

So many thoughts that I want to write down, but it seems I do not have the patience. I feel as if I am on the verge of something, wavering. Waiting.

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So tired of feeling tired.

I spiffied up my lj a bit last night. It made me really miss web design. I remember when I first started using LJ I knew all of the neat overrides and could pretty much whip up a new style in a couple of minutes. I've forgotten a lot of the HTML I used to know back in the day. I know all the basics, but nothing compared to what I used to know. I ( Read more... )