So much new stuff is happening. damn, it's all different, and yet, everything continues to be miserable. my relationship is about to burst apart b/c of the silence. sometimes i can't imagine not being with him, and sometimes i think otherwise. like why am i putting a great deal of effort into this when he, clearly, is not focusing on me or this ( Read more... )

Is it possible for someone to just stop loving another? i think that's what has happened. i've been trying to talk to him for like 3 days to appologize for things. he is ignoring me. won't call. won't e-mail back. he's treating me like shit now. this i can't handle. this feeling like nothing i can do or say will be right. i want to just leave him ( Read more... )

There's one person in this whole world that i couldn't imagine not telling everything to. For that person to tell me that they can't talk to me or that they don't want to talk is the worst feeling in the whole world. I don't care if i squished an ant on the sidewalk or if i'm really angry and need to talk, i ALWAYS want to talk to him and tell him ( Read more... )

I would prefer if nobody responded to these, i just need to vent ( Read more... )

well, i'm a year older, which means i'm a year closer to getting the hell out of florida and in with my wonderful boyfriend. el problemo es, i don't know if he's ready for that. he always says things that kind of deter me when i bring up the move, like, "it's going to be hard", or, "babe, i know you wanna come up here, but..." and then i get ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday, to me.
Happy Birthday, to me.
Happy Birthday, to meeeeeee...
Happy birthday, to me!

In this life, I have had many good opportunities pass me by. I chose not to take up on them for fear of failure. In turn, I was taunted by failure anyways. MY LIFE WAS A DOWNWARD SPIRAL TO HELL. When I finished high school, shit got worse. No job, No school, Nothing to show for any of the hard work that I've done in my life. I believe that if you ( Read more... )

Life sux as usual. I'm overworked, under paid, and super exhausted and burnt out on life in general. On a lighter note, I'm going up to NY to see my husband...in LESS THAN ONE MONTH! Who knows, I may not come back. I wish. I have my own horse now, he's a crazy paint gelding (Tobiano/ Overo), not trained, so more work for me. ALSO, i have my own ( Read more... )

It sucks being second best to everyone. Or maybe not even second best... to some that's a compliment! Most of the time it's 9th or 10th! Hah. I'll never be anyone's #1. All I ask for is unconditional love. I just want to feel loved ( Read more... )

I am tired of crying every night. It's like, before i go to sleep, i know what awaits me...a long night of laying in my bed looking at the ceiling and eventually i end up crying myself to sleep ( Read more... )