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It sucks being second best to everyone. Or maybe not even second best... to some that's a compliment! Most of the time it's 9th or 10th! Hah. I'll never be anyone's #1. All I ask for is unconditional love. I just want to feel loved............
IS THAT SO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK FOR!??!!
I can't hold on to someone I can't reach...
:::someitmes people that u think u have nothing in common with anymore can say exactly wut you wish u had tha ballz to say out loud. thank you heather, for understanding without knowing.:::
I guess it's time to update. Quite a bit has gone on. I'm going to list and then if any explanation is in need, i will gladly fill in minor details->
-I'm working 7 days a week, at a pet store and at the barns. I'm not going back to school. I have decided that I would like to start a life, away form my family.
-I'm kicked out of my house, my belongings are in stoarge. Furthermore, I'm never welcome in plantation ever again. My grandmother and I are never to speak again.
-I have lost my patience for everything and i'm about to lose my fucking mind. That needs no explanation. well it does, but u get none. especially if it's berto reading this. but i don't think he even cares to read this anymore. just like he doesn't care to call me back or say "hey shit's gonna be okay" he likes to judge before the truth comes out. and for me, that's a fuck up.
- i have decided today, that my life sucks and nothing will make it better right now. so, it's just going to keep sucking. fuck it. hey, let's make bets that i won't get a call by midnight to say happy new year. wouldn't u know it. man fuck all that too. i need to do something about this predicament. right now, no matter what, i lose. b/c....all together now! my life sucks!
hey i'll finish this later gotta finish up the moving process. PEACE BITCHEZ!
IS THAT SO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK FOR!??!!
I can't hold on to someone I can't reach...
:::someitmes people that u think u have nothing in common with anymore can say exactly wut you wish u had tha ballz to say out loud. thank you heather, for understanding without knowing.:::
I guess it's time to update. Quite a bit has gone on. I'm going to list and then if any explanation is in need, i will gladly fill in minor details->
-I'm working 7 days a week, at a pet store and at the barns. I'm not going back to school. I have decided that I would like to start a life, away form my family.
-I'm kicked out of my house, my belongings are in stoarge. Furthermore, I'm never welcome in plantation ever again. My grandmother and I are never to speak again.
-I have lost my patience for everything and i'm about to lose my fucking mind. That needs no explanation. well it does, but u get none. especially if it's berto reading this. but i don't think he even cares to read this anymore. just like he doesn't care to call me back or say "hey shit's gonna be okay" he likes to judge before the truth comes out. and for me, that's a fuck up.
- i have decided today, that my life sucks and nothing will make it better right now. so, it's just going to keep sucking. fuck it. hey, let's make bets that i won't get a call by midnight to say happy new year. wouldn't u know it. man fuck all that too. i need to do something about this predicament. right now, no matter what, i lose. b/c....all together now! my life sucks!
hey i'll finish this later gotta finish up the moving process. PEACE BITCHEZ!