In my dream last night, my partner Frank had a scorpion behind his ear. When I pointed it out, he calmly picked it up and took it outside. He didn't get stung by it though it was trying and I was worried he would get stung in the dream. In the dream I was worried about "all the scorpions", like there were a lot of them on the ground and all around ( Read more... )

One of the things I love reading about in my older entries is the weird dreams that I had. Sometimes my dreams end up predicting the future, but I don't really realize what is happening in the dream.

Last night I had a dream that I was trying to make a little bit of extra money doing door dash and Uber eats. I did that as a full time job last year ( Read more... )

I don't know how much I've talked about "the kidnapping incident" here. but the ten year anniversary of that happening is coming up in January.

I'm just tired. I am grateful that I turned a shitty situation into personal strength, but I'm so sick and tired of being strong. I just want this to not have happened to me. I get a tight feeling in my ( Read more... )

I won money from a settlement last year. There was a lawsuit for my husband's accidental death, and me and my son won some money from it. I wanted to take my son on an epic vacation to FL where every day was a "yes day". We started out in Orlando and did a Disney day, stopped for one night in Pompano so I could get a tattoo from an old middle ( Read more... )

In 2009, Chad was physically violent with me and threw me on the floor so hard that my rotator cuff in my left shoulder became permanently damaged ( Read more... )

My kid went on a sleepover last night. I have not heard from him. If I ever want to hear from him when he is gone for a night, I have to literally beg and bribe and threaten him to do contact me. I even have to get super specific, "you have to text me at least one time before this exact time at night and if you don't then this is what will happen ( Read more... )

The subject. It's hitting me really really fucking hard lately.

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I talked to my dad for the first time in a long time. He has prostate cancer and he has not gotten his covid vaccinations yet. He is in his 60s and he has asthma! He is having surgery for his prostate on Friday and I told him that he needs to get his vaccine as soon as possible after that. Also his house is falling apart and I think I need to go ( Read more... )

I finally watched Maid. I knew it was going to be triggering. I went through a whole box of tissues, I was crying so much. It was painful to see it on tv. It was painful to see someone else going through it, even though it was fictional characters. It was painful to ssee all of the ways in which her struggle was easier and harder than mine. ( Read more... )

Every time I feel like I want to go to a skate meetup, I see the photo of that meetup and it's everyone just bunched together for a group photo and not a single person is masked up. I know that everyone is tired of doing this, they're tired of caring. I get it. But I've gone this long without getting covid, I don't want it! I don't want to catch ( Read more... )