So far so good in my new little paradise. I think things are going rather well. You know, I jumped on here with so much in my mind and not sure what to even type out now. I feel a little like I am in the twilight zone. Things are very different here compared to the city. I am intrigued about this. This is a very unique experience. The drive went ( Read more... )

I love titles sometimes, they can be so misleading haha. But this one is so true. Everything in my life is pending right now. Pending move, pending jobs, pending life. It is all in the high of times. I have been debating some of the fears that I have tonight. Hell even dealing with a real true blue winter is gonna be interesting. God I am such a ( Read more... )

Fuck you and the horse you rode in on Katey. You are the most selfish self absorbed prick I have had the lack of pleasure of meeting, let alone dating. Why have I put up with you this long? Why am I not fucking you over in the end and booking it? Why am I not just up and walking away? I am a good person, I can't bring myself to stoop to that level ( Read more... )

Where in the the hell do I begin with the events as of late. Start with the small stuff I suppose. First and foremost I am very happy with my relationship and couldn't imagine any more happiness than what I already have. But, it can only get better and I know this deep down in my core. I understand so much dealing with her right now and honestly ( Read more... )

I am... What am I right now? I am confused. Yes that is a good start. I am perplexed. Mhm, good good keep it coming. I am discontent. I am angry. I am scared half to death. I am a very mixed up jumble of emotions. To make matters worse I haven't spoken to her all day long. I have sat here for the last hour in keys willing my phone to go off. I ( Read more... )

How hard I try to put myself in a better mood today I fail miserably. I do not feel very up to par with my emotions. I feel slightly erratic today. I will be in a good mood then plummet just as quickly as I raised myself up. This is highly annoying at this point. I do not like this. Just when I think I am feeling more positive about what the future ( Read more... )

How can I be a rock, how can I be there when I am gone all the time? How am I gonna be able to be there for you when I am so busy with work and school? How am I going to include you in my life? I am terrified of screwing something up, be it my job, my schooling, my girlfriend, something, because I have too much time to try and divide. I dunno how ( Read more... )

So much has happened over the last couple of days. I have realized who is reliable and who is a piece of shit to me at this point. Maybe not to that level but def close. True colors have flowed quite a bit lately. Why is it people can't be unselfish genuine folks? Why must people be like this? I don't want to let anyone else in close to me now. I ( Read more... )

I am not sure if this will be of decent or moderate size. All I know is I should blog a little bit before it builds up at all. Here soon I won't really have time to breathe let alone blog really. I know this deep down, so maybe this is a good option for now. Might as well get it out of my system. Lol. I am rambling, I can tell. But my English ( Read more... )

Okay, so I have been slightly avoiding in my blogs what is in my heart and really deep in the recesses of my brain. I get so nervous that just typing it out scares the shit out of me cause I know she now keeps an eye on this. Yes, I can make it private but still, I want her to see my inner thinking, it clues in a lot of who I am with myself alone. ( Read more... )