Pending...
I love titles sometimes, they can be so misleading haha. But this one is so true. Everything in my life is pending right now. Pending move, pending jobs, pending life. It is all in the high of times. I have been debating some of the fears that I have tonight. Hell even dealing with a real true blue winter is gonna be interesting. God I am such a Floridian at heart, the concept of a winter, a real cold winter scares the hell out of me lol.
At first I thought going through all of my fears, I thought it was something to do with second guessing myself. After much debate, I know it isn't that now. I never really thought it was that. I got confirmation finally when I realized that I was letting a certain person have control over me yet again. I am refusing to let Tiff control my life like this. She split up with me two weeks after moving here. I have a faith with Ammie that I never have had with Tiff at all. I loved her yes, but not to the depth I have had with others. And now what I have is amazing. What we have is amazing and totally trips me out sometimes. How done I feel.
We were discussing some things the other night that had my heart pounding a beat it never has beat before. I am so excited to be honest with you.
This move is much needed. And I am almost done packing everything up. I am almost done with all my chores to make this move smooth as possible. It is all coming together now. I am so excited. And it means I get to meet her family soon. That is a little nerve wracking but okay, I got this. It shouldn't be a problem at all, I just can't panic, I cannot hide behind Ammie. I gotta be headstrong about all this really. I cannot let it get to me is all. Big family yes, but I got this. I think maybe that is why it is so daunting really. It is the biggest family I will have ever met with a partner. That is scary unto itself. But I have to stay positive and I will have no problems at all.
SO many positive thoughts and happy things are coming my way. I am excited to see what the future holds. Let's see where this path takes me.
At first I thought going through all of my fears, I thought it was something to do with second guessing myself. After much debate, I know it isn't that now. I never really thought it was that. I got confirmation finally when I realized that I was letting a certain person have control over me yet again. I am refusing to let Tiff control my life like this. She split up with me two weeks after moving here. I have a faith with Ammie that I never have had with Tiff at all. I loved her yes, but not to the depth I have had with others. And now what I have is amazing. What we have is amazing and totally trips me out sometimes. How done I feel.
We were discussing some things the other night that had my heart pounding a beat it never has beat before. I am so excited to be honest with you.
This move is much needed. And I am almost done packing everything up. I am almost done with all my chores to make this move smooth as possible. It is all coming together now. I am so excited. And it means I get to meet her family soon. That is a little nerve wracking but okay, I got this. It shouldn't be a problem at all, I just can't panic, I cannot hide behind Ammie. I gotta be headstrong about all this really. I cannot let it get to me is all. Big family yes, but I got this. I think maybe that is why it is so daunting really. It is the biggest family I will have ever met with a partner. That is scary unto itself. But I have to stay positive and I will have no problems at all.
SO many positive thoughts and happy things are coming my way. I am excited to see what the future holds. Let's see where this path takes me.