Existence is so lovely isn't it? The air is crisp (with no humiditiy), the weather is beautiful and the birds are singing. And then you go to Relapse Prevention Group and get raped in the ass with a giant dildo. Thats exactly what happened last night (metaphorically speaking of course ( Read more... )

Yesterday was quite a strange day indeed. I had a pretty good day for most of it and at the end I had to top it off with an NA meeting (bla). Anyway during the meeting I was voicing my opinion about how Catholocism is evil and completely destroyed my self esteem. We were talking about step three (giving your life over to God) and I was mentioning ( Read more... )

I'm starting to go crazy. I've been stuck in this house for two weeks and have had to put up with random people's bullshit. Living with 20 other addicts is so damn tiring. I'm going to go MAD with my cabin fever. I NEED normal people. I'm in desperation ( Read more... )

Why is it that male lifeguards are ridulously hot ( Read more... )

Arg today brought up a lot of memories. Some of the people here are ridiculously stupid. So I was thinking about how much I'd love to be with my friends. Or chilling like old times at Beacon at the smoking corner. I feel as if some people here think I'm annoying. Probably because their not used to Bostonians. I'm going to make myself believe that ( Read more... )

Wow so I had a completely exhilerating two months. I just spent the last eight weeks in the wilderness making traps to catch animals, eating shitty food, and falling into creeks during knee high creek crossings. It was an intensity of bullshit that I've ever been through in my life. At some points I felt like dying. Especially when I was caught in ( Read more... )

So I'm getting ready for my big trip. I'm going to miss so many fucking people. There really has been so many good times with or without drugs. I was with my father this afternoon going on Christmas Eve errands and while he was in the hardwood store I was sitting in his car reminiscing big time. I'm going to miss Alli, she has been my best friend ( Read more... )

So I pretty much found out which program I'm going into. Its most likely that I'll be in North Carolina at Four Circles Recovery. Its a hybrid wilderness program meaning for one week we stay in a lodge, two weeks we go camping in the woods, and then another week in the lodge and so on and so forth. Everyone is telling me that I will be most ( Read more... )

It just gets worse ( Read more... )

Some unfortunate news ( Read more... )