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So I'm getting ready for my big trip. I'm going to miss so many fucking people. There really has been so many good times with or without drugs. I was with my father this afternoon going on Christmas Eve errands and while he was in the hardwood store I was sitting in his car reminiscing big time. I'm going to miss Alli, she has been my best friend for months. We get fucked up a lot lately but the whole summer we were sober and we had really good times. We're basically a married couple and we always joke about it. I'm going to miss Krystyna, shes been my other best friend and the love of my life for years. She was the first person I came out too, she made it so much easier. I'm going to miss Adlai and him constantly making fun of me but sometimes being so sweet and thoughtful. I'll have to find someone to fill his spot. It's impossible though. Anna Rock is going to be in my heart. She has helped me so much and always makes me feel like I'm actually worth it. Molli is my "hippie girl" even though she really isn't. Even though I'm not the biggest fan of hippies shes the only one I love and adore and I can't wait to come back and see her. We can go boy shopping! Ahna is going to be in my heart because she has significantly affected me. I remember once she said "Matt I'll always love you and respect you with or without drugs" I didn't tell her but that made me so damn happy I felt like crying. Carly is my girl and shes the CRAZY girl in my life that I need. Like the time I let her drive my car with six other people in it and she nearly killed us. I need some adrenaline Carly.
If I commit to this it will probably be about eight months. Most likely I will not come back to Beacon instead getting my GED and I hope this will not affect our relationships. I want to come back (most likely next summer) and just chill with you guys all the time and have fun not getting fucked up. We've done that so many times. Like Dirk's birthday was amazing. I remember sitting there and thinking I don't need beer or uppers to enjoy this because I already am.
If I left anyone out I'm sorry I'm just too caught up in the moment to have a memory.
Wish Me Luck
P.S. I just thought of you Nicole! I know we haven't chilled in forever but when I get back it'll be like old times. Watching movies, doing crazy shit in the city. I think your so much funny and SOOOO funny. :)
If I commit to this it will probably be about eight months. Most likely I will not come back to Beacon instead getting my GED and I hope this will not affect our relationships. I want to come back (most likely next summer) and just chill with you guys all the time and have fun not getting fucked up. We've done that so many times. Like Dirk's birthday was amazing. I remember sitting there and thinking I don't need beer or uppers to enjoy this because I already am.
If I left anyone out I'm sorry I'm just too caught up in the moment to have a memory.
Wish Me Luck
P.S. I just thought of you Nicole! I know we haven't chilled in forever but when I get back it'll be like old times. Watching movies, doing crazy shit in the city. I think your so much funny and SOOOO funny. :)