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It just gets worse.
Everything.
I don't know if I can do it.
I want to run away and live on the streets addicted to crystal meth.
I don't care if I have to fuck sleazebags for cash.
Give men with limp dicks some pleasure they don't deserve.
On Friday I overdosed on Adderoll. I was so upset. I broke into my fathers safe and was deciding whether or not to take all of his xanax or all of his adderoll. I didn't really want to die so I took his adderoll. I remember I sped out like crazy for about twenty minutes. Then I suddenly felt abnormally tired. My bones felt so weak. I was standing up one minute in front of the Christmas tree and then all of the sudden a second later I was on the floor in front of the coffee table with vomit and wierd white stuff coming out of my mouth. I tried to make it to the phone to call my parents but I couldn't so I just fell asleep on the couch. My parents came home and couldn't wake me up. They noticed the safe was broken and the adderoll container empty so they took me to the emergency room. I was there FOREVER with goddamn IVs and shit. I never came down so hard in my life. I was crying practically the whole time.
It was a stupid decision but sometimes I wish I could just fall into a coma for a while so I don't have to deal with shit. My friends hate me. They'll soon forget about me. But everyone says its good because all they think about is how they will get their next high. I'm fucking sick of this.
...
Everything.
I don't know if I can do it.
I want to run away and live on the streets addicted to crystal meth.
I don't care if I have to fuck sleazebags for cash.
Give men with limp dicks some pleasure they don't deserve.
On Friday I overdosed on Adderoll. I was so upset. I broke into my fathers safe and was deciding whether or not to take all of his xanax or all of his adderoll. I didn't really want to die so I took his adderoll. I remember I sped out like crazy for about twenty minutes. Then I suddenly felt abnormally tired. My bones felt so weak. I was standing up one minute in front of the Christmas tree and then all of the sudden a second later I was on the floor in front of the coffee table with vomit and wierd white stuff coming out of my mouth. I tried to make it to the phone to call my parents but I couldn't so I just fell asleep on the couch. My parents came home and couldn't wake me up. They noticed the safe was broken and the adderoll container empty so they took me to the emergency room. I was there FOREVER with goddamn IVs and shit. I never came down so hard in my life. I was crying practically the whole time.
It was a stupid decision but sometimes I wish I could just fall into a coma for a while so I don't have to deal with shit. My friends hate me. They'll soon forget about me. But everyone says its good because all they think about is how they will get their next high. I'm fucking sick of this.
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