No job but it's very possible I will become a fucking waiter. Like are you fucking kidding. 2 schools and paid thousands of fucking dollars only to become a fucking a waiter AGAIN? Don't try to tell me that this is only temporary because at this point it doesn't look like I have anything else going for me. 2 internships to help turn my career ( Read more... )

It's starting to all make sense. Maryland has been driving me up the wall. It's time for something new. Living here is just the same ol same ol and I need something new. It just might be crazy enough to work. Where will I move though? Who knows but I'm thinking New York. I know it's expensive as fuck but we could make it work. I'm also starting to ( Read more... )

I'm slowly deteriorating. I had a follow up interview yesterday for a job...not a career. A job. Making 12 an hour. Voom. Voom. Voom. I feel as if I'm 23 again. This is beyond painful and I can't accept this ( Read more... )

There's just something about odd numbered years since 2010. They offer a state of bliss, contentment and above all sanity. The nostalgia I'm usually cursed/blessed with seems to have suddenly diminished. It's a sign of something. I try so hard to go back to what I know and remember but I feel nothing. No sadness no tears no laughs no anything. Very ( Read more... )

I can't believe I graduate in two months. I'm really not ready and I'm really depressed about it because I have nothing lined up. I've been applying selectively and I haven't heard anything back. I honestly feel like I have to be qualified for some kind of museum job but at the same time I don't feel qualified enough if that makes any sense. All ( Read more... )

I only seem to update this thing when I'm really upset or angry. Hey if it helps right? I feel like I have no one to talk to when I'm feeling this shitty. So I have a semester left and it just hit me that it's been 10 years to the semester when I first started school. I know they say never regret or never look back....FUCK THAT. I get so fucking ( Read more... )

This year hasn't been the best I have to say. The amount of school work this semester is unbearable. I'm so exhausted and stress everyday all for what? I may finish this degree with no promise of a career or job. While I love my internships, neither one of them are guaranteeing me a job either. It's really frustrating and also the fact I've ( Read more... )

Well hello journal. Welcome to 2014. Looking back at 2013, I must admit I thought it went very well. I would like to call it "The year of experience." I was able to experience something I've always wanted which curatorial work for museums. Finally I found where my niche is. Now if I can only get a museum job when I graduate next year, then I'll be ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what it is about about my friends but they just drive me NUTS. Maybe it's just me getting bitter and old, but some of the decisions they make drive me nuts. Ok, so I don't make the best choices either all the time and I get that they are different from me on what they value but for GOD SAKES why make choices that are going to stress ( Read more... )

/not really? I'm not sure why I sometimes go crazy when I look up people I use to know and see what they are doing with their lives. I just happen to look at my "people you may know" list and all these old faces came up. I don't really care what they are doing with their lives so why did I just go crazy? High School really does feel so long ago. I ( Read more... )