I am super proud of myself for moving forwards on my private therapy routine. It is probably not going to show externally for at least a few more weeks. But I remember that secret promise to myself that I wrote on a hidden dark place. I think it will come true. I think soon my head will start filling in cracks that have been growing for a few years ( Read more... )

I feel too disconnected. Too much dissociation. Definitely not enough emotion. This bizarre illogical crying phenomenon... I dislike it intensely. It should not be happening. I must have control over my physiological functions during reactions to situations that would see crying, a symptom of emotion, as inappropriate and highly irrational. One ( Read more... )

I have been snacking on whole fresh mozzarella cheese, salami slices, and roasted almonds, along with apple slice smeared with cashew butter. Good stuff. When Adam comes home from work, we'll eat the eggplant parmigiano that has been soaking for two days.

In the medical science community, there is a slow push to make chronic fatigue syndrome an ( Read more... )

Copied from a comment I left on Facebook. During a discussion regarding how cerebral palsy might or might not be seen socially as an active disability that impacts a person's social or professional life
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I am medically disabled.
I'll be medically disabled and socially disabled even when society makes everything accessible and easier to navigate.
My ( Read more... )

Good things.
The personal therapy protocol is juuust starting to work. Slowly and softly. The doctors said slipping off is natural. But my slips are fewer. I think the new drug is working much faster than expected. No terrible side effects after all between dry mouth and that tingly sensation that the world is shiny shiny shiny. But I can already ( Read more... )

So, my thoughts have been spinning merrily amidst what could be a spiraling episode of... Oh, fuck, probably everything at once. After I had a chat with three doctors about the consequences of stress-related memory loss, I quietly decided to start a private mindfulness therapy, which I have only been sharing with the psychologist, for advice, while ( Read more... )

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Yes, obviously. Sheesh ( Read more... )

Okay, first thing ( Read more... )

I did not realize how weirdly difficult it can be to answer the question, "So, what triggered this C-PTSD episode and panic attack ( Read more... )