Beautiful Boy Chapter 46/?
Paring: Booth/Brennan/Parker/Introducing New Major Character Laura in later chapters
Rating: M - WARNING: There is mention of child abuse and mental health issues
Genre: Romance/Family/Angst
Summary: Please Read Summary: Parker has been returned after being abducted and months of sexual abuse. Booth and Brennan deal with his issues while learning to deal with their burgeoning relationship and a family they thought they’d never have. There will be issues of resolving child abuse trauma and mental health for all
Chapter 46
"Yeah Babe I want to go home too but we still need to talk. Let's get some bad drive-thru coffee and find a place to park. By the way I hope this is a safe place to leave the SUV because we need to take the Mercedes home I am not leaving it here."
"I'll talk to Jimmy and tell him I am leaving the SUV here over night." Booth said as he scooted out of the booth and stood unsteadily on his feet. "God..." he grumbled not remembering the last time he was THIS drunk.
"Hey big fella steady there. Good think I came to bring you home. You are in no condition to drive Booth. What made you think it was ok to drive to a bar and drink this much?" she asked as she helped him over to the bar tender.
"The problem is I DIDN'T think" Booth pointed out as they walked up to Jimmy the middle aged bar tender. He told the man what he needed to do and a few minutes later they were heading to her car. "People are going to think I have a sugar mama" he only half teased as they walked to her expensive car.
"Yeah well you do... oh don't pout Booth even though you are quite pretty when you do it. Besides the sugar goes both ways remember" she smirked as she ran her hand down the front of his jeans.
"Whoa," Booth semi shrieked and jumped at her touch. "Well yeah the sugar goes both ways." he said hating how his alcohol induced brain reacted overly quickly to her touch. "Come on let's get that coffee and have the talk that I am still dreading, even though I know I need to have it."
She unlocked the doors and let him get in and fasten his own seatbelt, which he did after her reminder they didn’t have insurance if they got into an accident and his seatbelt wasn't fastened. Soon she found an open fast food drive-thru and got them both several cups of coffee and parked in the empty parking lot. Handing Booth his first cup she said "so talk to me."
"I don't really know what to say." Booth said after taking a few sips of the nasty coffee. "I already told you the crap from like 10 years ago." he paused and looked at her. "I also know you don't want me to go on and jabber about how sorry I am."
"Booth I do care that you are sorry. It would suck if you were this much of an asshole and never said you were sorry. But Booth sometimes you keep saying you’re sorry for things you either didn't do or have no control over. It's counterproductive. Can I ask some questions about what happened 10 years ago? I think I have the connection you might need."
sorry
"Okay," Booth said as he looked back down at his half empty coffee cup. He didn't want to talk about what happened before, but he knew he had to trust her. She was losing a good chunk of the life she loved to be with him. She was nursing his 8 year old son and baring his twins. He should be able to answer any question that came from her mouth without lying or being angry, especially after the way he acted earlier.
"Did you happen to see Parker with me in the bathroom before you left tonight?"
Booth swallowed hard as he thought of that image. "Yes" he said looking at her with sad eyes. He felt like an awful person for leaving when he had seen the two people he loved more than life itself so upset.
"What did you hear?"
"I didn't hear anything....I simply looked and then got dressed, leaving right away."
"Oh, well the bad thing is we woke him with all our yelling. I don't know why he came into the bathroom to me, if he heard me vomiting or he was afraid of getting you more angry, but he found me in the bathroom vomiting. The stress had caused my dinner to come back up. At any rate he asked me if the babies were making me sick. I told him yes then he asked me if you were moving out." Trying to be as gentle as possible she asked "baby do you know why that might something he would be scared of? Because he was definitely scared."
"Probably because until Rebecca found somebody he was always hoping we would all be a family." Booth said thinking about all the crying and talks about him and Rebecca getting together. "Rebecca and I never got along much after Parker was born. He would see us yelling a lot and I would always leave after. We of course never got together or married so he is probably thinking that is going to happen here."
"Parker remembers the yelling then he remembers the long period you have had not yelling with anyone. Now we are yelling so he has connected it to two things one you are leaving and two you are mad about the babies. Like you Booth he is internalizing these as being his fault because it started again after he came back from the kidnapping."
This had Booth even more upset at himself. "None of this is his fault... and I am NOT mad about you being pregnant" he said the last part looking right at her. "You know that right... that I am not mad at you being pregnant, I am really happy and excited about that."
She reached over and placed a calming hand on his arm "Booth I'm not trying to start another argument. Yes I know none of this is Parker's fault and I know you love and want these babies as much as I do. But I think this might be the connection we are looking for. Please listen to me ok Booth ok? Can you do that listen objectively to what I am about to say?"
Booth moved his arm and her hand so he was holding her hand instead. "Yeah... I'll listen."
"Ok we know that Parker suffers from depression, Colin has said as much. I am seeing Parker react they exact same way you do, taking on the same blame, being unshakable in his belief. So I think it is reasonable to assume you also may suffer from depression. You know the military Doctors are not the best, Colin has the very best to offer us. I would suggest we take advantage of it. In the last 10 years treatment have become much better. Using Colin we can run it through the Family Center and no one else has the right to know. We can do it together."
Booth listened to Bones talk and knew she was right. He owed his whole family this and knew he needed to talk to somebody... get something figured out or he was going to lose the love of his life... his family. "Okay." he simply said knowing he shocked her a bit with the way she was looking at him. He had a feeling she didn't expect him to give in so quickly.
"We also need to deal with Parker either when we get home if he is up or tomorrow morning. I told him all Mommy's and Daddy's fight sometimes but the ones who love each other make-up. We need to make sure he sees that we still love each other, we have made up and we all want the twins."
"So Booth are we good?"
Booth smiled a small smile and nodded his head. "We're good." he gave her hand a squeeze before leaning over and kissing her lovingly on the lips. He didn't expect anything from the kiss, but just wanted her to feel that connection.
She leaned in and decided since she was asking for Parker she might as well ask for herself as well. "Booth..." she whispered "can I ask for one more thing?
"Of course," Booth whispered against her lips. "Anything..."
"It's really been a long time since we have taken time to connect and comfort each other. Do you think we could practice the lotus position again?" she asked blushing so hard she was sure she was glowing in the dark of the night. "Soon" she added.
Booth saw the blush and a slight smirk came to his lips. "Soon.." he agreed and began placing kisses all over her face and neck. "Very soon..."
She began to devour his mouth with her own and was running her hands up his chest under his t-shirt when it hit her "SHIT, Booth we have to get home. Angela has been watching Parker for over two and a half hours and he will still want to nurse at least once more before he will go to sleep for the night. His earlier nursing was just because he wanted to be comforted shit, shit, shit." Giving him one last hard kiss she started the car and drove back toward their life.
"I'm sure he's fine...he probably slept through his normal feeding time since he got up for the other." Booth tried to assure her with a hand rubbing her thigh.
"I hope so. I told Angela there was milk in the freezer, and a bottle in the cupboard if he refused a cup but she has never dealt with him in one of his I want to nurse and nothing is going to stop me moods."
"Hopefully he will realize that enough has happened today and he'll be calm." Booth said as they walked out of the elevator and down the hall to their apartment. He used his key and unlocked the door to thankfully just the sound of the TV playing softly. "See.." he whispered to her.
Angela heard them come in and quickly turned the TV off and looked at them worriedly. "Everything okay?"
"Yeah fine, sorry we took so long. We had a few things to discuss and it kind of got out of hand. But everything is fine. How was Parker?" Bones asked Angela.
"He was fine, I looked in on him a few times but he slept the whole way through." Angela said with a smile but still appeared worried as she grabbed her purse off the counter. "If you don't need me anymore I'm going to try and get some sleep tonight seeing it's almost four."
Turning to Booth she said "Booth don't forget the aspirin and to drink the extra water before you got to bed. I'll be there in a minute." Turning to Angela she said "Ange again I'm sorry I didn't think it would take this long and there were some things we needed to talk about without Parker around. We took advantage and I'm sorry it won’t happen again. At least I hope it won't."
"It's no big deal... I wish you guys would feel comfortable asking for help more often." Angela said with a smile as she went to give both of them hugs. When she hugged Booth she smelt the strong alcohol on his breath... seeping out his pours, but she didn't say anything. Both Booth and Brennan were strong adults, if they said things were okay then they were okay. She also knew that if things weren't okay neither of them would have come back to let Parker see it.
"Thanks Ange." Booth said giving her a hug back.
She walked Angela to the door. "Thanks Ange, I know it looks bad" knowing there was no way she could not know that Booth had been drinking and surmise she had gone and get him. "But everything really is ok."
"I trust you Sweetie." Angela said as she stood in the doorway. "But please don't keep us out of your lives. You have friends in me and Jack... and everybody else at the lab. We all miss you."
"I know and we will but we can't right now. Just trust me a little longer. When things with Parker are more stable we will be back to work. Booth and I are planning to go out soon maybe you and Jack can watch Parker for a few hours. We'll make sure he is asleep first."
"I'm not talking about seeing us at work, or us watching Parker when he's asleep. I do trust you Bren, but I also know something… actually a lot of somethings are not okay. This is when best friends come into play... and you always need best friends over boyfriends." As she said the last part she pointed at Booth who was busy cleaning up the kitchen from dinner dishes that had never gotten done.
"That might be true, but right now I need Booth, I depend on him. We both have to be home when Parker is and his school schedule is reduced right now. So with all of Parker's needs we haven't found time for friends, but I promise I'll try harder to at least keep up by phone. Angela you know relationships are hard for me it is taking all my energy right now I need this to work."
"I know Bren... I wasn't meaning to make things harder on you... I just worry."
"I know you do I and I appreciate it I really do it's just that things are not very easy around here right now and we are trying to keep things as simple as possible. I promise to try and talk to you more, just don't forget what it was like when you first fell in love" she smiled looking over at Booth as he was finishing to kitchen and walking toward their bedroom.
"Yeah... I know," Angela said smiling again. "Alright well I am going to let you guys get some sleep... and let Booth sleep off the huge amounts of alcohol in his system."
"Oh I think he is doing better than you think" she smiled at her "good night Ange" she shut and locked the door and when to check on Parker before going to joining Booth.
Booth was in the bathroom washing his face and brushing his teeth. He had already stripped off his clothes and left them in a pile in the corner of the bathroom floor. He had thought about taking a shower but didn't feel like standing up long enough to do so.
She came in to lean against the door jam, "Parker's still asleep I don’t think he will be awake anytime soon. You tired?"
"I'm weary," Booth answered as he brought his toothbrush to his mouth again. He didn't feel exactly tired but weary and tired from emotions rather than actions.
"Come here" she said pulling him toward their bed "lay on your side" after he did she slid in behind him and slid her arm under his to rest her palm against his heart. "Let’s synchronize our breathing Booth, re-connect." They started their breathing each humming on the exhale.
Booth automatically felt the comfort and connection with Bones as he pulled her arms around him and made their bodies stay flush together. He breathed deeply, making it so his intake and exhale of air was at the same timing as hers.
She could feel their connection as their breathing synchronized. She loved the closeness this brought them. With all the stress they had been under they had not been taking the time to re-connect like this. She leaned in further resting her cheek against his back feeling them breathe as one, gently drifting off to sleep.
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