Beautiful Boy 10/?
Paring: Booth/Brennan/Parker/Introducing New Major Character Laura in later chapters
Rating: M - Overall/Some mention of child abuse/Mental Health Issues
Genre: Romance/Family/Angst
Summary: Parker has been returned after being abducted and months of sexual abuse. Booth and Brennan deal with his issues while learning to deal with their burgeoning relationship and a family they thought they’d never have. There will be issues of resolving child abuse trauma and mental health for all..
In this chapter we will see Parker in full regression. Please as you read remember this is fiction written for your enjoyment.
"I got to Rebecca's at around 9am to pick Parker up for our day together. When I got there they were already yelling at each other and Rebecca was telling me to take him she didn't want to see him anymore. We sort of got into a yelling match but seeing Parker was getting more and more upset I just picked him up and took him with me." He paused and ran his fingers through his son's hair.
"We had to stop by the store to get him pull-ups and wipes since I had left his bag at Rebecca's. While there he appeared nervous and did not like the idea of being changed in the bathroom. Thankfully we got through that experience." Booth said with a slight laugh. "We then headed to the zoo and his behavior was rather hyperactive and he was full of energy. We had a bit of an issue over a stroller with a monkey on it and chewing on toys at the gift shop." he paused to see if there was anything that Bones wanted to say.
Feeling Parker relax further and his weight getting harder to manage in his current sitting position she move him to a more horizontal one. “A stroller? Chewing on toys? What did this have to do with your zoo trip?" She had gone with them on other zoo trips and these items had never been a part of their visits before.
"It is a lot like what he did when we were at the zoo when he was two or three." Booth said. "Of course he didn't try and bully other kids over wanting a specific stroller. AND it didn't look so odd to have a 2 year old chewing on toys."
Parker settled into the new position happily and started gripping at Bones' shirt.
"Oh I see. That must have been hard on you. But I thought you were taking Parker to your house tonight? What happened to change that?"
"I was, but since we left Rebecca's house so quickly there were some things I needed to get from there before I could bring him to my house." Booth explained and his body was tensing as he spoke of Rebecca. "We left the zoo early because Parker threw a full blown fit at the ice cream stand. I still have NO idea what it was about. All I know is he wore himself out and was tired and wanted to go home."
As he explained this Parker managed to get his hand down Bones' v-neck t-shirt and was trying to mess with her bra. To him it was simply getting in the way.
Booth was too wrapped up in his conversation to notice what Parker was doing. "When we got to Rebecca's place there were boxes of Parker's things sitting outside. Way more than what I would need for the night. When I knocked on the door she got all defensive and told me to take the 'freak' with me and never bring him back." Tears were in his eyes as he mentioned this point. Just the fact that the woman he used to love with all his heart would say something like that about their son. The perfect little boy they made together. Sure, he had some things going on but he was still that perfect little boy to Booth.
"Oh Booth I'm so sorry," she could see the obvious distress this was causing him and truly didn't understand Rebecca. "Why would she call him a freak and tell you to never bring him back?"
"I guess his recent behavior regression has been too much for her." Booth said with a shrug. He could understand that, but he could NOT understand her completely giving up. "I guess I should have seen this coming when she did not want to participate in his therapy."
Getting frustrated with Bones clothing simply getting in the way, he decided to try to get his needs met even with the clothes on. He clamped his mouth awkwardly over Bones' breast and started sucking on her t-shirt. The comfortable sucking motion calming him again for the time being
"I suppose not Booth, but even so she is still his Mother. Anthropologically speaking it is unnatural for a Mother to give up her child even if there has never been cause to do so before. Do you think she is hiding something from you?"
"I have NO idea! The woman is like the complete opposite from what she was like before. Believe me Bones I would not have been sexually active to the point of pregnancy with a woman who was displaying this behavior." Booth really felt he needed to show his credibility again after this talk of Rebecca, a woman he had loved. It was then he noticed something and his eyes went wide. "Bones! What the heck are you doing?" he saw his best friend holding his son and LETTING him suck on her.
"What are you talking about Booth," she asked perplexed at his expression.
"Parker he...he's." He couldn't believe he was about to say this. "He's sucking on you...on your...your breast." The stupid thought of 'I am supposed to be the first Booth to do that' ran through his head.
She looked down at her breast and for the first time noticed Parker's movements. Now she thought what do I do? She took a finger and tried to get Parker let go of her breast, he just snuggled closer and sucked harder and more frantically. As she watched Parker she felt as if he were terrified she would take this away from him. How was she going to help both of them? Booth was shocked and most likely thought this was a sexual advance based on Parker's molestation. She didn't think so. Parker's Doctor had talked about Parker regressing as far back as infancy, maybe that was what was happening now. "Booth, calm down. I don't think Parker even knows what he is doing. Remember his Doctor said he might regress to infancy? I think that's what is happening here. You saw me try to remove him without success. Why don't we try this, you go to the store and get some milk and bottles while I call his Doctor and see what he thinks?"
"Umm...yeah...." Booth said and stood up still completely shocked at this turn of events. “Y... you're okay?" he couldn't believe that his partner was okay with Parker sucking on her like this. It had to be violating, especially to somebody who’s only thought of having children was a fleeting thing. Sometimes he wondered why she hadn’t mention it again since he had recovered from his surgery.
"Booth it's ok really. He is just confused. I promised you I would do whatever it took, if this is it, then so be it. Now go and get a pacifier too please. Parker has teeth!" she smiled and winced as Parker bit her again.
Booth winced too because he couldn't imagine how THAT must feel. "Right okay...be back as soon as I can." he grabbed his coat and headed for the door. Before he left he turned and looked at Bones. "Thanks Temperance."
Meanwhile Parker was beginning to get frustrated over the fact that he was not getting anything from his sucking. He pulled back and looked up at Bones with his big brown eyes.
"Oh Booth I need the phone number."
Booth was confused for a second but then realized what she meant. "Oh yeah here," he said taking the card out of his pocket. "If Doctor Harseny isn't in his office since it's a Saturday you can call the emergency numbers." he said handing her the card. He really hoped Doctor Harseny was in his office since he would be the one that would really know.
"Thanks." As soon as Booth left she called Dr. Harsney who fortunately was in his office. "Dr. Harsney? This is Dr. Temperance Brennan I'm calling about Parker Booth?"
Dr. Harseny had been in his office finishing up some of the paper work he had been unable to complete during the week when Dr. Brennan had called. Like he always was when he got calls on weekends he was worried. "Yes Dr. Brennan, how can I help you?"
"Booth took Parker to the zoo today which was not a very successful trip as far as I can tell. He then went to Parker's Mother’s and found all of Parker’s belongings outside and her refusing to have anything to do with Parker anymore. When he arrived here Parker ran crying to me calling me Mommy. While I was getting the story of what had happened this morning Parker started suckling on my breast. Booth, of course, is concerned this is a sexual response coming from Parker's sexual abuse. I however, am not sure. I have tried to get Parker to detach from my breast but so far have been unsuccessful. I told Booth I would call you and find out what you felt we should do."
Dr. Harseny took in all the information Bones was telling him and already had an idea of what was going on when she started talking about Parker and her breast. "It is a good thing you called me Dr. Brennan as I know this can be a difficult time for both you and Agent Booth. It appears from what you have told me is that Parker has regressed even further then when I saw him yesterday. Now this may only last a few hours, or it could be days. I would suggest getting items for an infant, bottles, pacifiers, diapers which you already have and anything else that would make things easier for you. At times like this I would even suggest the mother check with her doctor about milk production and breastfeeding. Now I know you are not his biological mother so this can be more of a challenge, and it might not be something you are even remotely interested in."
"Dr.Harseny I have no issue with breastfeeding. I have been all over the world and unlike the United States breastfeeding older children is not an anomaly. Breastfeeding gives an older child much more than nutrition. So my question to you now is which it the best solution for Parker?"
"You are correct D. Brennan when you say that breastfeeding is much more than just a good source of nutrition. It is a sign of love and is very helpful in bonding with the child. There are a few different things that can be done and I have a website you can check out on breastfeeding adoptive children." As he said this he knew Bones might have at least one thing to say about it. "I know you are not technically Parker's step or adopted mother, but the situation you are in is closely similar."
"Yes I am and I am committed to do whatever it takes to help bring Parker back. I would appreciate the web site address please." After getting the web site address she told Dr. Harsney they would check in with him again on Monday. Parker had fallen asleep and had now released her breast, so she gently moved him so he could stretch out on the couch and went to her computer. Once there she went to the web site and saw the all information on breastfeeding adopted infants and figured this would give her the information she needed. She was able to quickly find what they needed tonight and made a phone call to her Whole Earth Store and then she called Booth. This conversation was going to be harder and she had decided to tell him just to get what they needed and she would tell him why when he came home. As soon as he answered his phone she began "Booth?"
"Is everything okay? I am just about to check out; I've got the Bottles and pacifiers." Booth said sounding in a rush.
"Yes everything is fine. I just talked to Parker's Doctor, I need you need to make another stop. You know the Whole Earth Store down the street from me?"
Booth nodded even though Bones wouldn't be able to see him. "Sure..."
"You need to get a few things. I called them and they have what I need in stock. You will need to get me 2 boxes of a tea called Blessed Thistle, a can of organic formula and a breastfeeding aid."
Weird pictures were going through Booth's head at the word 'breast feeding aid.' "What in the world is a breast feeding aid?" he questioned as he finished paying for the other items and was heading out to his SUV.
She sighed she should have known he would have asked questions. Maybe she could just overwhelm him with facts. "It is a device that will enable me to breastfeed Parker until my milk comes in completely. In actuality it is a pouch or bottle that holds the formula and tubing the sits along the breast ending at the nipple. As Parker suckles he gets the nourishment he needs and it allows for the nipple stimulation I need in order to encourage my milk production. If you find one with a pouch instead of a bottle it will be more convenient for me as I can put the pouch in a shirt pocket."
This whole thing was just strange. "I um...yeah sure..." he said not ready to talk about this strange topic just yet. "I will go there now and get those things. You're just Parker is fine?"
That worked she had diverted him at least until he was home. "Yes Booth he's sleeping. When was the last time he ate?"
"Rebecca didn't feed him breakfast for whatever reason, so all he's had is a granola bar in the car on the way to the zoo." Booth sighed. "I was planning on getting him ice cream and then lunch at the zoo."
"Well it looks like all he will want today is a liquid lunch and dinner," she laughed. You had probably make that 2 cans of formula."
"Will do," Booth said as he hopped out of his car at the store and headed inside. "Okay so I'm getting a breast feeding aid, Blessed Thistle tea and two cans of formula?"
"Yes ORGANIC formula Booth."
"Why does that matter?" Booth asked curiously as he grabbed up the items. He was thankful he found the breast feeding aid on his own when he was by the formula.
"Booth do you remember me talking to you about what would happen to your penis if you continued to eat all that fat and refined sugar you insist on eating?"
"Booones," Booth whined now he had images of his penis falling off AND of Bones' breasts and nipples being stimulated by the odd machine he had just put in his basket. Clearing his throat he continued. "I've got all you wanted, anything else or can I come home now?" he didn't realize he was calling her house 'home.'
"Yes you can come home now." Funny how she had begun to think of her house as their home, it just seemed right. "Did you leave any pull-ups here?"
"If I didn't there are 2 packages in my car that we got this morning." Booth said as he paid and headed to his car. "I've also got all of Parker's things from Rebecca's."
"Good because he's starting to stir, if he isn't hungry, which I think is highly unlikely since he hasn't eaten today, he most certainly is wet. You can change him while I get ready to feed him. See you in a few minutes."
Booth turned his phone off and made the rest of the drive home. Once there he grabbed the bag of stuff he had just bought and the things he had bought earlier that day. He figured the rest of Parker's stuff could wait until morning. It was only five minutes since he had last talked to Bones as he walked through the door. He saw Parker sitting up on the couch looking around half asleep still. He looked like his usual self except for the thumb in his mouth.
"Booth I don't know what happened but all of a sudden he woke up and appears fine."
Booth after this morning he wasn't really sure about that so he walked over and stood in front of Parker. "Hey Parker...how are you?" he asked the boy knowing he would respond if he could.
Hearing his Daddy's voice Parker looked up and whimpered. He then looked over at Bones and his lower lip started quivering.
Seeing he was about to cry, Booth sat down and brought him into his arms. As he did this Parker started to struggle and was reaching out towards Bones. "I think you have something...he wants." he said sitting Parker back down because he was struggling too much to hold onto.
"I think you are right" she laughed. “He needs to be changed first and I need to get his formula ready. So can you try and do that and I’ll get the rest as soon as possible?" Then sitting next to Parker she took the child into her lap. As soon as he was on her lap he began pulling at her shirt. "Parker I know you’re hungry baby," she said in a very gentle voice "and I'm going to get you something right now. But first you need to have your pull-up changed so you will be more comfortable ok. Go with Daddy ok sweetheart. I'll be back as soon as I can"
They thought they could see Parker try to understand this but he was still clinging to Bones. Quite frankly he wanted food and could care less about his diaper. He no longer cared that Bones had to get it ready for him.
Booth watched this and then had an idea. He quickly ran to the bag of things he had just bought and pulled out one of the pacifiers. "Here let's try this," he said popping the pacifier into Parker's mouth. Once he was busy sucking on it he pulled the boy out of Bones' arms. "You do what you need to do; I will take him over there to change him." He grabbed a towel they had been using for this purpose and laid the still sucking boy down on the towel and went about changing him. He wasn't nearly as wet as he had been earlier since he hadn't had anything to eat or drink. He figured they would have more to clean up later once he had eaten.
Taking the other packages Bones quickly went in to the kitchen to get his formula and the breastfeeding aid ready. Pulling the aid out of the box she followed the directions for cleaning. Thankful Parker wasn't an infant who needed everything sterilized. She read the instructions for preparing the formula. Once this was done she realized the shirt she had on would not work, it had no pockets, and she would need to remove her bra. She went quickly to their room to look for a t-shirt with a pocket and found she didn't have one. Calling to Booth she asked "Booth do you have a t-shirt with a pocket?" As she waited or his answer she took off the t-shirt she had on and removed her bra. She figured since he was busy with Parker he would just tell her where to find one and was surprised when she heard his sharp intake of breath.
Booth was holding a freshly changed Parker who was now just wearing his Sponge Bob t-shirt and BMX biker pull-up. The second HE saw Bones he clapped his hands. This was the way he wanted to see her because that meant lunch!
Booth gasped and quickly closed his eyes. "I...I forgot what drawer I put it in...I...I thought I would come look for you, I'm sorry. I will go." he rambled in embarrassment mostly because his body was reacting to her half-naked form. He had seen her in just her underwear and through a rather shear shower curtain on a case, but this was totally different.
She looked at him and said "it's ok Booth just get the shirt I'll meet you in the kitchen," and she left to go back and finish putting everything together for Parker's lunch,
Booth quickly gained his composure and found the t-shirt he had been thinking about. With Parker still in his arms he headed into the kitchen. "Umm men coming through..." he called since he knew she was still topless.
She turned around and took the shirt he offered pulling it on and put the pouch with the formula in the pocket. "Ok Parker," she reached over and tickled his stomach "let's get you fed." She settled on the end of the couch so she could use the arm to support his head and turned him on his side. He was wiggling and pushing at her shirt trying to get at her breast. Taking his hand she tucked it between their bodies and made her first attempt at feeding him. It wasn't as simple as the article had made it seem. The first time he tried to suckle she said "ouch! Parker no don't bite." It took several times before she felt him take her nipple into his mouth and begin to suckle in a way she hoped was correct. As soon as he had established a strong suck she slid the small tube in the side of his mouth toward the roof just as the directions had specified. His suckling didn’t hurt and the article had said that was one of the ways she could tell if he had latched on properly. She guessed she would just have to wait and see. Once he was settled into his feeding it was actually a pleasant feeling Bones decided. Watching him suckle at her breast brought sudden tears to her eyes.
Booth was having mixed feelings about the whole thing. First off he was weirded out by it because the whole thing just wasn't how things were supposed to be. Second he felt the love he had for Bones coming on full force which led to the Third feeling and that was lust. The idea of anything getting such a simple pleasure as sustenance from the beautiful woman in front of him was enough to have him strategically placing himself behind the couch to insure she couldn't see his arousal. He could see the tears in her eyes and automatically thought she was in pain. "Are you okay? Is he hurting you? You don't have to do this if you are getting hurt."
Parker continued to happily suck, getting both the milk and the comfort he needed right then. Both of his hands were gripping onto Bones' shirt in various places.
She continued to look at Parker and her tears continued to softly fall. She lightly rubbed his temple and hair and then reached behind her feeling for Booth's hand. As soon as she found it she pulled it in for a soft kiss. "Booth he is such a beautiful little boy. How could anyone ever not want this beautiful child?" With that she noticed he had finished half of the formula and according to the directions she was supposed to transfer him to her other breast. She had a difficult time detaching him, she thought he probably felt it was all she was going to give him, but once he realized he was simply being moved to her other breast he quickly settled in again. Bones sat there quietly in awe watching her child as he ate, knowing she was going to be successful, soon she would not need the formula or the aid. After all she had never failed at anything and this was the most important thing she had ever done.
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In this chapter we talked about Parker regressing to infancy. Regression is not something all sexually abused children do, it is something only an extremely small percentage of these children experience. We also talked about her breastfeeding him and felt that Anthropologically it was something she would have seen and would do. There is a lot of information out there about breastfeeding adoptive children and we know it can, and is often, don successfully. If it is something you are desiring to do please check with your personal physician before attempting to use any herbal products to enhance or develop your mike supply.
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