I was asked to put pen to paper on a 5 year goal, 3 year goal, and 1 year goal. I feel as if I don't even know where to begin and there is a layer of embarrassment as my 5 year goal should answer the question "What do I want to accomplish before I turn 36 ( Read more... )

My 30th birthday was an experience I will never forget and remember fondly. 9 of my close friends spent 5 days with me in Santa Teresa, Costa Rica. This one truly one for the books. Everything from a private cliff-side home, to ATVing in the blinding rain, horseback riding along the coast, surfing and just being present with people I love. An ( Read more... )

It truly is all about timing ( Read more... )

I finally feel like I have my shit together ( Read more... )

It's taken me a while to get here, but I think I've finally arrived. I didn't stick to what I said I do of taking time away from Brandon. We still talked and hung out. It was so hit or miss though, one day he'd be my best friend, like old times and we'd have a blast. Others, I was walking on egg shells, not able to be myself because he was in a ( Read more... )

The past two months have been an emotional up and down that I hadn't experienced in a while. Sitting in the Delta terminal waiting for my 6am flight to SLC, I'm left reflecting how I ended here waiting for a solo snowboard trip. The whirlwind that was Carlos came and went. I was trying to force feelings on my end that just weren't there. He is an ( Read more... )

I had such a real conversation on Saturday night. It was straight from a movie, from the setting, clothing, topic, everything. At an ugly christmas sweater party, my good friend Carlos asked to talk to me on the porch. Red plastic cups in hand we stand outside around midnight. As a house party continues on in the background he starts telling me how ( Read more... )

It's been 8 months since my admission of putting others before me. It has taken me this long to actually start acting on changing that. So much has changed since that last entry, so many aspects of my life have been shaken up and we all know how much I love change ( Read more... )

A lot has changed since the last entry, which I remember writing very vividly as I sat on the floor, back against the wall, eyes glazing over with tears before entering a finance class. I was so unhappy at that moment, as I realized how though I outwardly acted as if I had everything together, I was slowly falling apart ( Read more... )

I've become someone who lives for the weekend. The time where I feel I can truly be myself, do the things I want to do, act the way I want, voice opinions, and live ( Read more... )