I cannot believe I have to make a house call to some user's place because he is too precious and helpless to drive down to his office for me to set him up on their VPN. If he was anyone else, I could probably do this setup remotely with him. But he is unforgivably stupid and today will only be the first in a likely week long ordeal of trying to get ( Read more... )

Having read further information on 'A Street Car Named Desire' I didn't exactly realize rape was implied during the climax. I think because it was a 1950s movie and the insinuation, at least compared to modern movies, was quite subtle I thought about the possibility but dismissed that it was the outcome. In the end, it was there and intended to be ( Read more... )

I've been dealing with a conundrum the past 24 hours surrounding the celebration of birthdays. On the one hand it is all ridiculous. Especially with people who focus so much on the day. On the other hand, it is nice to have "a day" that feels "special" and is fun and frivolous, even when one gets older ( Read more... )

We had dinner last night with one of the Sparrow's ex-coworkers... we'll call her Betty. The other friend didn't show as she is apparently dating someone new, as of a month ago, and she's suddenly dropping everything and blowing off everyone for this guy. From what we were told, he sounds like a psycho. He's done jail time, cocaine... he appears to ( Read more... )

I just had another revelation sitting here that all at once felt profound and at the same time blatantly obvious, as if it was something I'd already known or thought of before ( Read more... )

I've really been plummeting down a rabbit hole with all this analysis and reflection on my family and the reality of my experiences within that structure. I understand I cannot change anything. Nor is this necessarily about blaming anyone. It's more like just this cascade effect, where I saw one or two things, or better said I had revelations about ( Read more... )

I have commented for years about the generation my sister is a part of, that mid/late 60's born, high school and college in the 1980s, group of women. There is not one I can think of I've known in that generation that isn't either divorced or has been single their entire lives. All with a rotating door of men. Their relationships never quite work ( Read more... )

I forgot to remind myself to never order vinyl records from Amazon again. Several months back I twice attempted to order the 'Scream' movie score compilation. TWICE they sent me a cardboard sleeve with a sticker that said "Scream Soundtrack" on it, but you opened the cardboard sleeve and the records inside were not that. One was for some crap TV ( Read more... )

I don't think I ever came up with a nickname for my friend who cuts my hair, who was my neighbor growing up. I've struggled for months to think of one. I am just going to pull the trigger and call her Stacey. Both a nod to the Bond girl played by Tonya Roberts in 'A View To A Kill' and a nod to Stacey Peterson, whose body is somewhere out there ( Read more... )

Technically the work day doesn't start till 8 A.M. so I've done everything but focus on work so far this morning. It's Monday, so it's laundry day. I've also passed the time by tagging some rubber ducks to fill up the box in the Jeep where we keep our steady supply. Mentally, I have zero interest in work. But, I am also feeling the intense anxiety ( Read more... )