Christmas actually went as well as it possibly could have. Which now has me thinking my mother was putting on an act because the Sparrow was there, and that some time later I will hear the comments about how Christmas was "different" or "not how it was supposed to be" and how I've "ruined" her "family ( Read more... )

Just a few short thoughts before starting this day ( Read more... )

I got a Christmas card from this girl Tracy I knew when I was a teenager. In fact, she's the girl whose house we went to the first Christmas eve I could drive. When we drove the Jeep down those snowy roads, listening to 'A Very Special Christmas' and Duran Duran. She was also the one who gave me my first lava lamp ( Read more... )

The Sparrow's older brother, the Troglodyte, started a new game yesterday. First he tried calling when we were in the movies. Then he group texted the rest of the family asking if the Sparrow's phone was turned off, which he did months ago. This ploy at that time played into their mom's emotions (even though she knows he's crazy) and she called the ( Read more... )

Today is the big day for the girls. They are supposed to get adopted around 11:30. We are actually going to the cafe 90 minutes earlier. We booked one last reservation just to hang out in there with them. And then Lezzo from work and I were talking about it at the Christmas dinner and she and her partner also booked at the same time, as she's very ( Read more... )

Our work Christmas dinner was all fine. The Boss has gotten more and more nostalgic and religious in the passing years, and always makes statements about all of us essentially being family and how blessed he feels. We were gifted our usual Amazon card bonus, but the Boss also gave each of us (including his partner) an additional, personal gift from ( Read more... )

I am going to the Meat Packer today, and I was supposed to be meeting with the I.T. guys from Slate and "showing them around". But, as of yet, I've not received any email or correspondence from any of them to confirm this is happening. I was going there regardless, so it doesn't make a difference to me if it happens or not. However, if they aren't ( Read more... )

Since it's still the holidays, I am still ruminating and suffocating with thoughts of family. After the drama of my mother's headbanger's ball on the back patio the weekend after Thanksgiving, it feels like the routine of things before that has settled back in. She was texting me daily with her status for the week she was home, but she was back at ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about Christmas memories today. I think in my mind I am trying to resolve the conflict within myself between these moments I recall from the past, while seeing them through the new lens of how I view my family now. Or, if I should be put more accurately, seeing things through a lens of reality, with my rose-tinted glasses removed ( Read more... )

I am so burnt out this morning. I think I was clenching my jaw all night, and my head was throbbing. I don't really ever get headaches. That's how I know when I am really, actually sick because on rare occasion I have one. And what I am experiencing really isn't a headache right now. It's just more of a general pressure in my head, like a physical ( Read more... )