I've been thinking about Christmas memories today. I think in my mind I am trying to resolve the conflict within myself between these moments I recall from the past, while seeing them through the new lens of how I view my family now. Or, if I should be put more accurately, seeing things through a lens of reality, with my rose-tinted glasses removed ( Read more... )

Several weeks ago I was thinking about my life and had started think of each period/coinciding decade in a single term. It seemed like an interesting idea to me to coalesce entire spans of time down to a single descriptive word. And when a few came so easily, I figured I could do them all. I never wrote about it here, I only jotted notes down on a ( Read more... )

Today is Henry David Thoreau's birthday. Possibly the most influential writer of my life, or at least in the top three. My decision to go for a walk at the arboretum on lunch was not at all due to it being said birthday, but it seemed apropos nonetheless. Surrounded by nature and smelling the scents of prairie flowers I was removed briefly from ( Read more... )

I feel compelled to write a disclaimer before I even go forward stating that I in no way miss living in Chicago. When I reference the past I must once again clarify the past I am looking at simply does not exist anymore. I do think, as I may have written already though, that I may be going through some period in which I am finally processing and ( Read more... )

When I was going through my morning routine, I was thinking about how I used to enjoy writing for writing's sake but that I had not in a very long time. Life moves on and such and though I have periods of extreme laziness the time to sit down with my thoughts and put them down anywhere stopped being any kind of priority outside of blurbs on other ( Read more... )

I went out this morning in an attempt to recreate my routine from years ago. Breakfast at Melrose, then a walk to Lincoln Park to take in the gardens around the zoo and nature museum and take photographs of the flora and fauna ( Read more... )

I'm not putting this all down to recount what is obviously high school-level drama. But, it is something beyond the usual complaining and conjecture so I figured it might be worth noting. So in the future I can look back on this time and think how ridiculous grown men were acting this way or something like that ( Read more... )

After 36 years I found myself interested in football. Stranger things have happened. I've known for a long time that life often slaps me in the face and shows me I really am interested in things I've spent years lauding against. If anything to show me just how ignorant I can be. But, that isn't to say I don't pursue and view these various things ( Read more... )

There came a point one day after months of depression and contempt over a lost relationship that I realized I was holding vigil over something that could no longer exist. In life time passes and one day out of nowhere you realize that something you'd believed in and trusted in that was lost simply is not relevant any longer. Too much time has ( Read more... )

It's funny the topic came up yesterday considering it's almost 11 years to the day we first met. I usually have a concrete memory about certain things. Like I can remember the day I got my ear pierced when I was 18. It was December 10th, 1993. A Friday night at Orland Mall. I was with a friend at the time named Tracy ( Read more... )