I was thinking the other day of my brain working at some cosmic game of Tetris. And how small little revelations, or blocks fitting together, can cause a massive change in thinking about huge periods of life, or show reasoning behind behaviors. Opening things up in my head, if you will, like when you fill a row or three in Tetris and the blocks all ( Read more... )

It's after midnight and I cannot sleep. I still feel the adrenaline of events over 12 hours ago coursing through my veins. A sense that I am experiencing a personal historical event or awakening. A change is occurring, a bridge being crossed. Pick a metaphor ( Read more... )

When I was feeding the birds this morning I grabbed the last four hummingbird feeders that were outside, dumped the remaining nectar and figured that was the end of it for the season. Well, I am sitting at my desk for less than five minutes and a hummingbird is outside the window, flying around the empty hook that once held a feeder. So I ran and ( Read more... )

The tension and faltering relationship with my mother continues as I've started to almost willfully forget about my "regular" Monday and Friday calls to her. Had the Sicilian not been texting me and asked last Friday about it, I would have completely forgotten. And, of course, the onus is on my to make every call and communication. Because of the ( Read more... )

Things went as well as they could at the Meat Packer. The new guy I have a bad feeling about didn't calm those feelings by his appearance. He looks like some wrestler from a 1930s Three Stooges short. From his bald head to his bulbous gut. He was barking orders around the room to the poor kid that works in the shipping office. At one point asking ( Read more... )

Several weeks ago I was thinking about my life and had started think of each period/coinciding decade in a single term. It seemed like an interesting idea to me to coalesce entire spans of time down to a single descriptive word. And when a few came so easily, I figured I could do them all. I never wrote about it here, I only jotted notes down on a ( Read more... )

I was thinking how weird it is to me that these newer generations have photographed, or more so videoed, all their life experiences where as I have only a few random videos and random pictures to put together the history of my past ( Read more... )

As I desperately tried to avoid work all morning I went in search of some Halloween pictures in my iPhotos to have printed out. We bought several Halloween picture frames and we need some photos to put in them. Sadly the Sparrow and I only have one pic together from last year. But, we've got plenty of cat pictures and I have dozens, hundreds of ( Read more... )

Yesterday at the Meat Packer I was configuring a new laptop so I had a lot of time to kill waiting for updates to download and install. I only really use my work laptop when I go on site somewhere, so I hadn't really looked around on it in a while and I was looking at all the old favorites I had saved in Chrome. Some of this stuff is from two or ( Read more... )

I want to make a conscious effort to no longer feel the need to apologize for Donald Trump. This has nothing to do with some inner "shame" people might say I have for being a "traitor" or "voting against" my existence or whatever mental bullshit they dig up. I was raised to feel like I was the problem. I've spent many months recently unpacking the ( Read more... )