Today was really almost like any other day, except heavier in my head. I didn't want to spend all day being teary or anything like that. I was up super late this morning, finally went to sleep and had nightmares involving my family and Michael and who knows what else. By the time bembacolora called me, I had been in the middle of dreaming about him grating ( Read more... )

Today it occurred to me...I mean *really* occurred to me that I will be 28 in under 3 months. In my head, I am already 28. This is fine and nothing to speak of except that I had a slight freak out moment all to myself. I thought about how I really take my youth for granted. It is all well and good to be single at 28, but before I know it, I'll ( Read more... )

I have to say that I have been in an extremely good mood lately. It's a nice feeling, to have that when nothing extraordinary is going on. I've really been thinking a lot about how good I have it, and that I shouldn't waste my life. Which is not to say I have been wasting it, I've done what I needed to do to get through things. But I need to ( Read more... )

I think I might have posted about this last year, but I'm not exactly sure when it happened. November and December are months that are very foggy in my brain with exception of stand-out days like my birthday, Christmas, etc. But I was at my parent's house- I was here- I don't believe I was living here yet. It was sometime after midnight I believe ( Read more... )

Ok I have a feeling this might very well be a long entry. I've spent the almost 2 hours driving home from the airport thinking of how I wanted to put all of this and well...ok...

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Oh boy. I took out the picture of me and Michael from my memory box in order to photograph it and put it online. So I figured I'd just kind of look through the box and I saw a note Michael had written me. Just seeing his handwriting made me lose my breath. I've been doing fairly well lately as far as he is concerned but god do I miss him. I find ( Read more... )

I've slept about 2 hours in the past 48 hours, more or less. Crazy! I'm pretty convinced it's these pills. In one way it's nice because I don't have to worry about passing out at work, but my body feels like it's been neglected some rest. So I took a Tylenol PM and figured I'd write a little before I retire to my room ( Read more... )

I'm glad everyone found my previous picture so amusing! haha...I challenge you all to post some pictures of you as children, babies even :) I forget how long I had those glasses, but I was definitely still in possession of them at 19. I would purposely put them on when my best friend at the time and I would go out to eat just to embarass him. ( Read more... )

I've been having a rather difficult few days emotionally. I'm all over the place and finding myself irritated frequently. I think that a lot of my grief has risen more to the surface and I had forgotten a little what it was like to have it weigh so heavily on me. I mean, it's always there but usually I manage to submerge a good part of it so I ( Read more... )

There's nothing like a couple of good Friend's entries to get you thinking and remembering ( Read more... )