I'm scared for my life that this relationship isn't doing that well at all...Yesterday i was thinking on ways to do something memorable for matt. then when we started discussing stuff all the shit hit the fan ( Read more... )

I have been going through some emotional things deep within me for some odd reason. I thought they were gone but they seem to just float back. Last night I pretty much was yelled at by the one i love the most because of my ignorance and stupid thoughts of my low self esteem within me that always wishes to burst out on occassion. I feel like i'm ( Read more... )

well today hasn't been a very good day for me. went to a baby shower got to see some old friends. got in an arguement with my boyfriend again....been depressed all day cause i've been working on math literally all day. i've been at it for 6 hours now total for the whole day. and im really regretting taking this class. not like its anyone elses ( Read more... )

Well this morning was definitely a smoother start. Of course with the morning wake up call from matt and talking to him for a half hour like usual. I just had to stretch a bit to wake myself up fully. but ya i gotta work at 11:30 again so that will be somewhat productive ( Read more... )

so ya my life feels like the black hole of death...finished with my speech class for good. never have to look at it again thank god. that was the most retarded class I've ever taken. I hope I get a B in that class but at least I'll have passed. but other than that i have to somehow manage to get to the bookstore to get my summer books before they ( Read more... )

when your boyfriend tells you, you have a terrible temper and he doesn't know how to get rid of it....Wonderful feeling let me tell ya...NOT I fuckin feel like shit and i can't fuckin sleep...I'm so pissed off and upset and angry with myself at the same time....I can't fuckin help i have a temper, that's all i've been shown is people throwing shit ( Read more... )

well i was just offered an interview to a firm down in chicago...and matt was already afraid of something bad happening between us and what not and im not sure whether to call them or not...and reject the offer....I'm so confused as to what to do cause this could be my ticket to get the fuck outta michigan for good...but then i'd be leaving behind ( Read more... )

Well today I got super ticked off at work I had them send me home...I never thought I would lose it after someone not tipping me. I guess i really needed a break from work im not sure...or the fact that i need a fuckin drink really badly...but i can't find anyone that will buy me anything... I wish i was 21 so i dont have to keep looking for ( Read more... )

Three years ago I was a senior at southgate anderson high school. Not only thrilled that I had just ended high school two days ago but also because i was about to march down eureka road in front of 200 or so people. Today I looked at all my friends on my list on myspace and looked at their identical profiles with their senior prom pictures. Man ( Read more... )

Well Sunday was just amazing. I worked and then I went tanning for a couple minutes. I'm pretty much fried but im not gonna go tanning for a little while. I'm pretty tanned though needless to say. and im happy about that cause i dont feel so pale anymore ( Read more... )