one slip of sanity to the world
well today hasn't been a very good day for me. went to a baby shower got to see some old friends. got in an arguement with my boyfriend again....been depressed all day cause i've been working on math literally all day. i've been at it for 6 hours now total for the whole day. and im really regretting taking this class. not like its anyone elses problem.
i miss matt like no other i turned my phone off cause i'm that depressed...i dont want to ruin anymore of anyones day than i already have...
math has literally hit me hard. i feel so stupid right now, and im unhappy about my weight, im tired, im emotional cause i haven't had my period yet. I took a test the other night and the test came up negative so thats a good thing. not like it would matter anyways, im gonna have money saved up after this year so if any incident whatsoever happens i'll be ready.
i'm angry at myself, i have no clue why so dont ask. i've literally used half my notebook doing inequalities today so im probably gonna have to get a new one. my cramps hurt like crazy....im trying to calm down but its not working that well..i've been crying half the day...i got myself a slurpee from 7-11 to calm myself and that did nothing.
i just can't stop thinking about the fight i had with matt..i'm always stressed out and i have no idea how to calm myself down....and i'm so off the edge right now i'm snapping on everyone...
on a positive note i'm getting outta olive garden. i decided to take a whole school year off from the restaurant world. I'm working at the library at my college so that should be interesting. i'm only taking 15 credits all of which are art classes. I switched my trig class to basic design 1 cause i can't handle anymore math once i get through this class.
this next week im going to be living at school to get my hw and understand this math. I'm probably going to cancel any plans with anyone i had this week and just become a hermit. I guess all i need is time to myself. I will still go to work of course but anything other than that I'm locking myself away from everyone. my family and probably the bf too....i need time to breathe and think on my own.
but that's my life in a nut shell as of today...i feel like i'm on that rollercoaster of life again and i'm not liking it.
i miss matt like no other i turned my phone off cause i'm that depressed...i dont want to ruin anymore of anyones day than i already have...
math has literally hit me hard. i feel so stupid right now, and im unhappy about my weight, im tired, im emotional cause i haven't had my period yet. I took a test the other night and the test came up negative so thats a good thing. not like it would matter anyways, im gonna have money saved up after this year so if any incident whatsoever happens i'll be ready.
i'm angry at myself, i have no clue why so dont ask. i've literally used half my notebook doing inequalities today so im probably gonna have to get a new one. my cramps hurt like crazy....im trying to calm down but its not working that well..i've been crying half the day...i got myself a slurpee from 7-11 to calm myself and that did nothing.
i just can't stop thinking about the fight i had with matt..i'm always stressed out and i have no idea how to calm myself down....and i'm so off the edge right now i'm snapping on everyone...
on a positive note i'm getting outta olive garden. i decided to take a whole school year off from the restaurant world. I'm working at the library at my college so that should be interesting. i'm only taking 15 credits all of which are art classes. I switched my trig class to basic design 1 cause i can't handle anymore math once i get through this class.
this next week im going to be living at school to get my hw and understand this math. I'm probably going to cancel any plans with anyone i had this week and just become a hermit. I guess all i need is time to myself. I will still go to work of course but anything other than that I'm locking myself away from everyone. my family and probably the bf too....i need time to breathe and think on my own.
but that's my life in a nut shell as of today...i feel like i'm on that rollercoaster of life again and i'm not liking it.