Oh shit, been neglecting this blog. Not that I really care. I like tumblr so much more. Sorry, lj ( Read more... )

I started school almost two weeks ago, and I'm just starting to get into the hang of things. There's readings, but I've skipped most of them because I don't like reading introductory shit. I also don't appreciate listening to introductory shit on the first day of class so I skipped a bunch of first days, but that's okay. I figure that if it's ( Read more... )

I don't think I could ever love someone who doesn't love me back.

My mom is very two faced. She changes when certain people are around and reverts back when they're gone. It's really interesting to see. When we are in front of others she will put me down and insult me till the cows come home. I can't stand it anymore. I hate how she constantly ( Read more... )

 There's not much else to prepare, I think I've got pretty much the last of everything. Maybe need to get some Febreze on the way home. But that's it.

I'm happy and sad to be leaving. Happy because I won't have to be here anymore and take people's bullshit. It's going to be a refreshing change.

Sad? wtf I'm not sad at all. Get me the fuck out of

It takes a lot of effort to be a psycho. You have to be intelligent - much more so than the average intelligent being. Something traumatic had to have happened in the past to spark your personality reversal. You tend to have zero empathy/sympathy/sense of humanity. And other things I can't really think of off the top of my head, like having weird ( Read more... )

Haven't been updating lj lately because I sort of migrated towards tumblr. I find that it's very useful and more appropriate for the random thoughts that I have and the weird stuff I  find ( Read more... )

So I just finished it a while ago. It went okay I think. But it seemed like they were trying to convince me NOT to want to be in this program. Like they were trying to plant doubt into my mind and make ne second guess myself.

Well in truth, I guess I don't really want to be in this program haha. It's dangerous. I just wanted it as my backup. I ( Read more... )

 In the past week, I haven't prepared much for my interview....which is coming up on Saturday. I know I should be doing a lot more work for this but for some reason I'm so thrown off. Mainly because of the events as of late, but also because for some reason, I think this is going to be easier than I expected...I don't know why they want to test ( Read more... )

 I feel free again. I don't like the sensation of being chained down. When I have to run, I need to be able to run. During times when I feel suffocated, I need air.

That is the most fundamental aspect of me. You have to let me do what I need to do. 

 And why is it okay when YOU change but it's not okay when *I* change? Why can't we accept that nothing ever stays the way it is? Because it's foolish to believe so.... Why should I have to respect you when you clearly have zero respect for me? Does that sound fair to you ( Read more... )