Oh shit, been neglecting this blog. Not that I really care. I like tumblr so much more. Sorry, lj ( Read more... )

I started school almost two weeks ago, and I'm just starting to get into the hang of things. There's readings, but I've skipped most of them because I don't like reading introductory shit. I also don't appreciate listening to introductory shit on the first day of class so I skipped a bunch of first days, but that's okay. I figure that if it's ( Read more... )

I don't think I could ever love someone who doesn't love me back.

My mom is very two faced. She changes when certain people are around and reverts back when they're gone. It's really interesting to see. When we are in front of others she will put me down and insult me till the cows come home. I can't stand it anymore. I hate how she constantly ( Read more... )

Relationships? Errrr.. Not in a huge rush to get into a relationship, don't understand what everyone's immense urgency is, to be a part of a gruesome twosome. Maybe it's because of the relationships I've had in the past. They had zero love in them. What is love, anyway? I don't even know the answer to that.

I know what it isn't though.

It's not ( Read more... )

 Dear jrock ( Read more... )

Haven't been updating lj lately because I sort of migrated towards tumblr. I find that it's very useful and more appropriate for the random thoughts that I have and the weird stuff I  find ( Read more... )

 I feel free again. I don't like the sensation of being chained down. When I have to run, I need to be able to run. During times when I feel suffocated, I need air.

That is the most fundamental aspect of me. You have to let me do what I need to do. 

Do what you want to do because it makes you happy. And don't do what makes you feel sad, angry, or uncomfortable. But never hurt or affect anyone in that process ( Read more... )

 And why is it okay when YOU change but it's not okay when *I* change? Why can't we accept that nothing ever stays the way it is? Because it's foolish to believe so.... Why should I have to respect you when you clearly have zero respect for me? Does that sound fair to you ( Read more... )

 things in life just don't seem right.

someone even told me yesterday.."you look a little off today"...

i asked what that meant....

"i don't know, you just seem really off, like you've got something going on"...

i'd be lying if i said everything was okay. but to be honest, i don't even know what's wrong. i just don't feel so great.

i'm sorry if i've ( Read more... )