i went to yoga with my roommate. i am bleh about it. i might go again, i might not. i still hate everything and everyone. i have an orientation on Saturday for my art class and then Monday is when school starts. i am curious as to what this semester will bring. Two of my classes are art classes. i am hoping they will be less stressful. i am ( Read more... )

Been spending the last few nights organizing my hard drive. Just finished organizing all my personal photos and videos. I want to cry with nostalgia. i had an external hard-drive crash and break on me in the early to mid 2000s, so i don't have a lot of stuff from when i was a teenager unfortunately. i did, however, come across SOME stuff from high ( Read more... )

Another sleepless night. i took my seroquel but only slept for an hour. i spent the rest of the night dreading my electricity and my phone being shut off at the end of the month. It's all i can think about. i don't know how i am going to find a job without a phone. Suicide is beginning to look really great right now. It will be selfish of me to do ( Read more... )

Today i talked to the uncle of a girl in my group therapy about a job. He claimed they didn't need anyone but i think he was lying. i think he saw a scrawny little man and didn't think i had what it takes for manual labor. He kept telling me it is a lot of work. Bastard. So that is that. i dropped off more resumes. Susan's son is going to find out ( Read more... )

Whenever i look at Suicide girls, or almost any good pornographic photo, i think "where are these girls and how do i get one". Will i ever find a girlfriend and will she ever be attractive? To be honest, i haven't come across too many attractive girls here in CA. Definitely not on OKC or POF. i bet they are all in LA or Hollywood. i doubt i will ( Read more... )

i'm taking a break from Cunthia's "homework" assignment to write in my journal ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. i wasn't very anxious today during groups at me outpatient care. Still have no idea how i am going to pay for outpatient care. i plan on just not paying for it like my hospital bill ( Read more... )

I am so excited for the 10th, but i am more excited for the 15th. I am planning a nice day out with just Corri and I. I am making reservations at a certain place. It is hard to get in. I also am going to show her a few other things in that area. I really wanted to take us all the way there on the moped, but i just dont want to risk the extra weight ( Read more... )

i love it here and i wish i could move all my friends here. Today i discovered Ross. A clothing store that sells name brand clothes at over half the cost. I bought a pair of 55 dollar Dockers cargo pants and it cost me 15$. I also bought a bunch of work pants at the really big goodwill store ( Read more... )

I have been stressed so much about my electric moped. I really need it to arrive soon for my sake but also because it will be a game changer for when Corri arrives. Having the moped will allow me to do all the things i want to do with her. My list will have to be cut in half if it doesn't arrive before her :( Luckily, it is coming from Phoenix, AZ ( Read more... )