I'm tired of Angie saying something I do isn't "godly". It's really irritating. So I texted her && I said "Sorry but I'm still learning you seem to forget that a lot. I wasn't raised knowing God. I never know what's right. I'm on my own and it hurts. && you don't get that I'm trying so hard && you don't care && every little mistake I make is the ( Read more... )

So I guess this is it. I have to gauge my friendship on Craig by AIM conversations I read behind his back. I hate it. He pretended to care about me to Sarah, asking her why I'm being "anti-social" && that it's "unlike me", asking if Dev and me "finally did it" [whatever that means] "and" if I broke up with him, but as soon as he gets information ( Read more... )

I never even noticed how much shit you posted about me.
It seems like such a waste.
Since you used to care about me.
And I used to think you were cool.
But honestly, I don't even give a fuck about you or the whole thing anymore.
I feel bad for the wasted emotions.
The wasted effort.
The wasted worry.
I'm not who you thought I was, but I've become what you ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very confused. Yes, that is a simple way to say it.
Confused.
There are so many conflicting feelings trying to find their place.
I've lost all sanity, completely. I'm losing it.
I don't trust anyone completely.
I sat there today on the swing set, thoughts kept running thru my head.
Like why do I even try to love? Why even bother? I know it' ( Read more... )

I wanna believe him when he says he loves me, but you know, he's said it so many times about so many girls. I'm not sure what to believe anymore. I wish I could really read his mind. We joke about it, but I wanna do it for real. I just wanna know that I'm not wasting my time or my heart if he's just gonna do shit behind my back. Cuz I won't lie, it ( Read more... )

Story told in comments I left my friend in Minnesota.

Could my life get any more complicated? :/ My ex-boyfriend, the only one I've ever loved, is wanting back in my life. I want to say no, but at the same time... I know in my heart that he's the one for me. He says that he's finally realized that he fucked up by losing me & that I'm the only one he ( Read more... )

I didn't want anyone to know. Frankie knows, Todd knows, but that's all. & we haven't talked about it much since Monday night.
I think I may be well on my way toward anorexia. I noticed that I've been skipping meals since Bobby left, my mother tells me all the time that I need to eat. I was in denial though. I mean, me go without food? That doesn't ( Read more... )