I have found that I don't really get over people.  I come to terms with the fact that they're no longer around in the capacity I once had them.  Stephanie has likened this to mourning.  Well... I'd thought that I had come to that point with Jack, but then the world deemed it necessary to constantly remind me ( Read more... )

  Being honest with others has always been an important tenant in my life.  Specifically the statement: "Telling the truth means you don't have to remember anything" has meaning to me.  Especially since my memory's awful.  It's just easier to tell the truth ( Read more... )

I've been having some pretty weird dreams again lately.  The night before last I think I had my first legitimate straight-fantasy dream, which was weird because I certainly can't remember who the female was, and I woke up going "WTF?" and proceeded to fall asleep and have the kind of fantasy dream I'm more used to, though it involved a much older, ( Read more... )

So I've been bawling my eyes out for a good 20 minutes now.  Obviously, this means I'm still not coherent enough to explain just what the fuck happened Saturday night, and as such, means that if at all possible, I need to have an actual chat with the other parties involved.  And by actual chat I mean pretty much assaulting them with exactly how I ( Read more... )

Am I being selfish and childish, or am I just doing what any semi-sane person would do in this situation?  Either way, I think Jack was right.  Again with the other people being right thing.  Jack was right to not want to be my first.  Being someone's first, if they're not yours, is a very... interesting... place to be.  They think they're in love ( Read more... )

I think Steven is right.  I need new drama.  Or a break from the 'old' drama.  Either way, there are a few things I wish I could have yelled at the top of my lungs several times within the last few days.

"Yeah, why should you care about the feelings of others?  After all, You've got someone."
"Oh ye gods, do I ever feel blown off."
"You are absolutely ( Read more... )

I'm slowly getting tired of everyone telling me that he's no good.  That I should give up.  That I'm just settling.  That he isn't interested ( Read more... )

Sharpie on my palm reads as follows ( Read more... )

You know that list of 'missed opportunities' I seem to have been racking up ( Read more... )