to think that i would call this meeting a witch hunt...but it is the most appropriate term i can think of to describe it....まさしく fault finding exercise: witch huntit is most unfortunate that even in the education industry that we have to resort to such measures to account for certain results...why? what is the rationale behind it? have we lost ( Read more... )

所谓人不为己天诛地灭，unless i upgrade or improve myself, there is no justification for me to be in this world..i am not satisfied but a sense of comfort in the status quo is creeping in furtively. i am paid relatively well but i hate my job environment...i like my job partially, only in the preparation stage, but since that is not the whole package, i have ( Read more... )

久しぶりの記事なんですけど、山ほどのことを書きたいと思うんです。でも、前の記事の同じで、全部話したい事もまだ書き終わってないんです。真～、たぶん一生そのままで書き続けるんでしょう。自分の短所を分かるけど、その短所にこそ直して、うまくになりたいんです ( Read more... )

yes, i agree i am curious to know the truth over where that amount had gone to. the fact that u are just evading the question just prove to me that u dont trust me despite the fact that i am ur flesh and blood. since blood ties no longer matter, why shld i even bother.
FUCK OFF.

事実は人間が大嫌いだ ( Read more... )

他人にそういう言われても構わないと思った。。。本当に無関心な人。。。

what is there to care about....not that i can bring about a drastic change...sometimes i think u are just too idealistic...thinking that everything is still possible to change for the ideal situation...でも、真実は残酷です。 its hard to accept the truth at times, but sadly that's the truth for you to bear...

in fact i still ( Read more... )

am 8 days overdue since my last post...lolx...to think that i wanted to attempt reviving my blogging habits...guess i am seriously not into writing, but then again, as an academic-wanna-be, its the only path available for me...what an irony ( Read more... )

maybe i am too much into self-pity in the past...that's why i have such a pessimistic outlook of life...maybe that's why i find strength in Christianity...haha...what a lousy excuse...resolution: no more self-pity in life! but then again..ironic isn't it ( Read more... )

あのとき。。。

my thoughts went astray on my way back on the bus....

was reminiscing about those days when i was just different from what i am now...

i remember those days when i would tell myself to always start my day with a wide smile on my face...
i remember those days when i would do my utmost best to please those around me...sometimes even at the ( Read more... )