finally met him in person and it confirmed my thoughts.

so long as one no longer have anything in common, no worth for him to use, there is no more friendship to talk of. a decade of acquaintance just like that.

最初は憧れた先輩につれない態度もらってのはショックだけど、今気持ちが整ってて、スッキリする方がいいと決めました。いろいろ誤解を招く行動かもしれんが、別に弁解要らざるし、会う機会もない。万が一会わざるを得ない場合だとしたら、最低限の接触して挨拶ぐらいすればいいと思う。
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i do not often talk bad about my colleagues, as i always see them with a higher than minimum level of respect, especially so since they are definitely way smarter than i am and more capable than me in many ways. however, sometimes, i guess it is this build-up of jealously and pent-up unsatisfaction within that resulted in me expressing this rant... ( Read more... )

說白了，一般的友情是建築與雙方的利益關係。
一旦利用價值已盡、這段友情也隨之消失。
但真摯的友情並非幻想。只是難遇。

相手が自分ほど好きの気持ちを持ってないことを気づいたら、なるべく早く終わらせる方がいい。自分のために。

つまり、相手が自分と同じ気持ちを持っていないこと、少なくとも自分と同じように好きではないことが分かったら、その時点でなるべく早く終わせろう！

You know it's time to end when you know that the other party does not share the same feelings as you, or at least does not like you in the same way as you do.

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i just had to let it off my chest. as expected, he did not know what was wrong with his expressions, and i admit i might have overthought his words. but my mind has been made up-we are just friends with benefits, so let's just focus on the mutual benefits. what made me really angry was that i will never use that expression on friends, lying is ( Read more... )

i kind of confessed indirectly but in the end, my sense was that there was no hope in advancing the relationship. so it was over before it began.

still trying to get over it but i guess it takes time. in fact almost a month has passed and i must say time does heal, albeit slowly, but surely.

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yes, i agree i am curious to know the truth over where that amount had gone to. the fact that u are just evading the question just prove to me that u dont trust me despite the fact that i am ur flesh and blood. since blood ties no longer matter, why shld i even bother.
FUCK OFF.

sometimes i wonder why do we conform to moral standards of society all the time ( Read more... )

久々に怒鳴った。

never liked to do group work...partly because of my personality and also the fact that your group mates might not be on the same page as you and hence the trouble of convincing (or to put it nicely - discuss) each other into coming to a consensus ( Read more... )

事実は人間が大嫌いだ ( Read more... )