well, i have expected this to happen. i am just a fool to have hoped that things will be different. i admit i was the one who drew myself away, refusing to meet up as i was not in the right mind. and i didn't clarify my plight so it is entirely my fault. Then again, i was ready to lose this friend since he had repeatedly taken me for granted and so ( Read more... )

it's been three years since i returned home. and nothing has changed. yup, in fact, i would say things might have just become worse.

there is a reason why i never bring friends back home. there is a reason why i absolutely hated pple who assumed that i come from a privileged background. i hated when pple just simply assumed my upbringing, my ( Read more... )

i had enough of people claiming to want to be friends but have absolutely no intention of advancing any further than just someone whom one has sex with.
i can make do with just sex…but i just feel unacceptable and betrayed when i try to understand or know the other party but he does not seem to be interested to build a friendship…then why say “let’s ( Read more... )

いつのまにか「友達になろう」という表現は周りの人々が軽々しく言えるになったから、今そういわれるとどんな意味をわからなくなって来た。
just saying. had to get it off my chest.

何もかももう飽きた。っていうかもう諦めた。何もかも信じられない。

i think i had enough of all these nonsense. what is the point of putting one's trust and belief when it is simply one-sided and unreciprocated. a simple waste of time and effort.

to think that the notion of "friends" is so difficult to grasp and understand.

「友達」という言葉はそんなにムズイと思わなかった。友達になれる前提はお互い分かり合いでしょ？じゃ、 ( Read more... )

it’s been weeks, if not at least a month, since i have decided to erase all correspondence and delete all SNS associations with him…yup, it might sound extreme and contrary to my earlier posts, but i had to protect myself after all, no one but oneself is responsible for one’s wellbeing.

but indeed i felt a lot better since, though i admit he still ( Read more... )

說白了，一般的友情是建築與雙方的利益關係。
一旦利用價值已盡、這段友情也隨之消失。
但真摯的友情並非幻想。只是難遇。

相手が自分ほど好きの気持ちを持ってないことを気づいたら、なるべく早く終わらせる方がいい。自分のために。

つまり、相手が自分と同じ気持ちを持っていないこと、少なくとも自分と同じように好きではないことが分かったら、その時点でなるべく早く終わせろう！

You know it's time to end when you know that the other party does not share the same feelings as you, or at least does not like you in the same way as you do.

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i just had to let it off my chest. as expected, he did not know what was wrong with his expressions, and i admit i might have overthought his words. but my mind has been made up-we are just friends with benefits, so let's just focus on the mutual benefits. what made me really angry was that i will never use that expression on friends, lying is ( Read more... )

i kind of confessed indirectly but in the end, my sense was that there was no hope in advancing the relationship. so it was over before it began.

still trying to get over it but i guess it takes time. in fact almost a month has passed and i must say time does heal, albeit slowly, but surely.

but this entry is not about my failed relationship but ( Read more... )

You know it's time when you have to drag yourself out of bed in order to wake up early for work ( Read more... )