i hate to say this but when things don't go as expected, it makes me fall into a state of self-pity, and self-despair.

haha, i had been ranting over twitter the past few hours for i just can't help but feel so helpless and stupid, especially of the fact that i had made several mistakes which i can never, ever forgive myself for, and i am always in ( Read more... )

made a short trip back this summer and i must say many things have definitely changed...including me, for i have also made some decisions/responded in ways that i would never have considered before...haha...

as in the earlier post, i have made it clear to this senior of mine that i am no longer the same as before where i would simply accede to his ( Read more... )

何もかももう飽きた。っていうかもう諦めた。何もかも信じられない。

i think i had enough of all these nonsense. what is the point of putting one's trust and belief when it is simply one-sided and unreciprocated. a simple waste of time and effort.

to think that the notion of "friends" is so difficult to grasp and understand.

「友達」という言葉はそんなにムズイと思わなかった。友達になれる前提はお互い分かり合いでしょ？じゃ、 ( Read more... )

i just hate it when the mood turns sour simply because you didn’t say that you are uncomfortable with the place earlier.. and then you make it seems like it is our fault for having chosen the place..

to make it even more sickening, you left your phone with us and went outside, waiting for one of us to go out and fetch you. What the fuck.

who on ( Read more... )

just came back from a week-long trip travelling to places in western japan...

am embarrassed that i let my emotions take over me at one point when i gave him the cold shoulders...honestly, i can't remember what the trigger was exactly but i suspect it has something to do with what i thought he think of me and was thus offended with his ( Read more... )

every time we meet, it ends with sex. yup, we are fuck buddies. nothing more, nothing less. just two individuals using each other to satisfy each other's carnal desires.

every time we had sex, i feel myself being drawn to him. but i know nothing, absolutely nothing, will come out of this. yet i just want to have sex with him, to be close to him- ( Read more... )

もう３週間が経ったのに、日本へ戻るとか戻らないとかまだ決まっていません。ちょっとイライラしているんですが、しょうがない！ここは暑すぎるし、不便なところがいっぱいあるし、本当に東京に帰りたい！

took part in a fund-raising event last saturday to lend my support to the cause as well as to help out a friend whom i have known since my secondary school days....i was just roped in last minute to assist in the ushering and hence would not consider ( Read more... )

yup...yet another historical chinese personnel has fallen prey to the south koreans' nationalistic scam...was flipping through the papers for the past few days and to my horror, or more of amusement, such an absurd headlines definitely caught my attention...i wonder who's next, after quite a few prominent chinese had just changed their nationality ( Read more... )