Still having dreams where we're together. They make me sad.

This isn't getting easier. Why isn't this getting easier?

I still think about you sometimes. Certain songs, certain phrases, certain objects make me remember. And I know that the feeling of longing and regret is for what you represented and not necessarily you yourself, but the two can be easily confused. Things came after you, good things, healthier things. But some of the honesty was missing, which is ( Read more... )

Need to vent. This will be nonsensical. You have been warned.

I could have sworn that I was over It's Complicated. I definitely thought that I was done with this. But the past few days have been ridiculous. Aww, who am I kidding, it's been like a week and a half. I have been this close to texting her and seeing if she was DTF. Which brings up an ( Read more... )

 I'm on Ariel's computer after a severe attack of conscience. I keep treating her like she was my girlfriend, and people around campus have seen us holding hands. I still don't feel...it. But if I'm treating her this way, does that mean I want to date her? I had a dream last night that It's Complicated wanted to get back together with me, and I ( Read more... )

Last time on Jacqui's life, we see her reduced to a quivering pile of emotions by It's Complicated's sudden, unexpected rejection. Truly, it seemed like the smallest argument turned out to be the straw that broke the camel's back. In tears, Jacqui begins taking the full dose of her anti-depressant once again, and life seems better. The clouds lift ( Read more... )

God damn I miss her. I wish I could find someone to blame this on that isn't me, but it is decidedly (as usual) my fault. Well done, Pastore. Way to ruin your midterms. I'll get over myself in a week or so. Right?

So I had my first kiss last night. My first real live, this-is-what-people-mean-when-they-say-making-out kiss. ------- was tipsy, it was the super bowl after all. She warned me that she gets...affectionate when she's tipsy. She has been known to kiss girls before. But I get ahead of myself.

We were on our best behavior, since --- was in the room, ( Read more... )

So ------- and I spent some more time together tonight, snuggling, mostly. And I confessed how deeply I felt about her, and then she said that she wasn't sure how she felt about me. As in, she has some sort of feelings for me. She called me a question mark. So we've both been convincing ourselves that we're just friends. She said, "I care about you ( Read more... )

I had a dream about Michelle. And swimming. Two of my favorite things. I miss her. But at least this dream was innocent and didn't make me feel like a bad person for having it. She looked good in blue.