Strange day, haven't felt well at all, thought it was physically due to the weather but then missed my going into an upper hypo* at 6.8. My diabetes is very odd indeed, 50% of readings go down After food not up. I need to be 11 bedtime not the normal 7, and 7 minimum brekkie not the usual 4. In the 7's i tend to feel slightly off, in the 6's I feel ( Read more... )

I woke this morning feeling absolutely exhausted, wrung out, tense and stressed. And afraid, very afraid. I'd dreamt I was in prison and everyone was trying to push their way into wherever I went. I was told to go through the doors, had no choice and I was petrified and as soon as I went through them I was assessed and sized up immediately by all ( Read more... )

Wednesday 12th April I woke to the shuddering realisation my garden fence was gone and my garden was going. 2-3 hours later I discovered by shock that the boundary was not what they said and the garden was Halved at the top , the fence posts about to go in and the cats graves were beyond my boundary and no longer in my garden. Not a promise has ( Read more... )

Yesterday morning I woke up to find the estates trailer dumped outside my (new-dont-spoil-their-view-50%-less) garden with the remains of my beautiful Norwegian Fir. She was about 16ft tall, stunning, lots of new growth on her that always looked like candles to me. I had had her for about 12 years, maybe more and she had originally been decorated ( Read more... )

Four hours at that place yesterday. Just me and my mother which is the first time we've been allowed there alone. And so I did a check up. And the results of that check up have caused yet more vicious rows with my father tonight. An issue I'd said was a logistical nightmare but was overruled on because 'you just don't understand these things',, ( Read more... )

What a scare that was earlier. I hate things like that. Ambulance got lost (normal for here) and Rosie did her usual protect mum thing by climbing all over me as they were trying to do the ECG here then attempted to lick the Paramedic on the forehead as she bent to remove one of the electrodes! I still have chest pain but all is safe (touch wood). ( Read more... )

Terrible day due to the extreme agency bewildering behaviour and then the vet told me that Tobacco has a month or just days to live. His kidney failure is advanced, he has fluid in his chest, and elsewhere, his heart is racing and irregular. My little boy 😢 His first treatment to help lasted just 3 weeks Not the expected 6-7. A repeat injection ( Read more... )

Tobacco on top of the eye level electric grill Tuesday tea time. By Thursday afternoon his kidney failure became very bad, the assist drug failed at 3 weeks, not the 6-7weeks expected. Veterinary diagnosis 1 month, perhaps just days if he doesn't pick up from the two injections. His chest has fluid in it, and his heart is so fast, plus irregular, ( Read more... )

Just had a dreadful scare, Daisy was happy relaxed on my lap enjoying a fuss when she actually 'pitched a fit' pitching forward from my lap, crashing to the floor then staggering in violent circles, her legs going in all directions, before she crashed to the floor again, then still, appeared to stop breathing. I crashed down behind her calling her ( Read more... )

Was rushed to doctors today as emergency due to extreme pain from my face & BLINDING violent pain just above the damaged eye thanks to dental anaesthetic fkup Monday. My mouth has dropped on one side and eye lid same side won't close properly. Closed I can see out of it. I have no sensation in the eye. At least I have movement still, she's not ( Read more... )