so it's getting late and i don't want to sleep, definitely don't want to study. all i want is to sit here indulging in my favorite music till i pass out. wish i didn't feel so guilty about doing it though. wish i didn't have an exam, a paper, and a presentation to work on. damn it sucks to waste all this energy on doing nothing. i am so wide awake ( Read more... )

did you ever think that maybe i'm boring because my life is boring? let's think about it....what's going on nowadays? ummm....not a damn thing besides work, school, haven, work, school, haven, work, school, haven. the little excitement i get is vicariously through the lives of television characters and you've rained down on that. i mean sure i can ( Read more... )

no more drama, no more boys, no more strep, no more. i'm done with being sad and sick and miserable. i'm also done with complaining for the time being. i've got to enjoy what's left of the summer.

here's to hoping.

today was the first day i cried for you. it was just for a moment but it lasted long enough. i got off the phone with you and had the same feeling i had towards my mother after talking to her. longing...despair. a certain loneliness i hadn't felt in a while because i had you. a loneliness that has now come back after losing you. i had come to terms ( Read more... )

i sit and stare and wish. wish for the outdoors. wish for my old friends. friends who've come from far away. to see me when? four o'clock. a whole day wasted. gone. only a few hours of sunshine to enjoy. all thoughts of lake, heat, and grass...wasted. all thoughts of pecans, books, and cards...wasted. gone. i wish work didn't matter. i wish i didn' ( Read more... )

it's almost here!! just one more paper and i am officially done with being a junior bitches ( Read more... )

so it's 4:00am and i'm done with one paper not the other (the late one). two down three to go. i have spent the last two and a half hours doing nothing but stall on this paper. i have listened to music, eaten popcorn, drank coffee and coke, danced around, stretched, and now am reading email/writing this. i'm afraid that if i keep going at this rate ( Read more... )

you ever get so devoid of feeling, that you wonder what the hell happened to all that emotion you used to have ( Read more... )

do nothing and let things fall as they may ( Read more... )

bizzare is the only way i can describe it all. it's been four months so obviously it looks better now. still little things grab my attention that wouldn't before. the letters L and R missing from the wal-mart sign, the expansive darkness in certain parts of town, no place to go after 6 p.m. (sometimes earlier). all so weird as if this place is ( Read more... )