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i sit and stare and wish. wish for the outdoors. wish for my old friends. friends who've come from far away. to see me when? four o'clock. a whole day wasted. gone. only a few hours of sunshine to enjoy. all thoughts of lake, heat, and grass...wasted. all thoughts of pecans, books, and cards...wasted. gone. i wish work didn't matter. i wish i didn't need it to sustain me. no life without work. no food. no shelter. no school. sad, so sad. i wish for sleep. my comfy bed with a beautiful boy waiting...for me. morning is so sad. daylight shines through my window and wakes me before i'm ready. before i've had my fill of cuddling and kissing. before he's even awake. wasted is the sleep over. wasted is the bed. i wish for you to be here. for you to take me away. how about it? it won't hurt will it? i can live without food right. i can be without an education. no one would blame me for wanting a little sun. boo hoo i say. boo hoo. no more copies and filing and organizing. no more computers and papers and stapling. no more. no more. i want fun and i want fantasy and i want to do all those things you owe to the sun and the beauty of it all. how about it huh? no. no takers? that's too bad. this could have been a great day. instead...wasted.
just wasted.
just wasted.