fucking eh...
you ever get so devoid of feeling, that you wonder what the hell happened to all that emotion you used to have?
i'm wondering whatever happened to me caring so much i couldn't stand it. that obsession with not letting something go. of always wanting to resolve things. i wonder if i've given that up.
where did it go? my efforts have gone to shit. i have done nothing...nothing. i haven't faught like hell to make things right. all this time...wasted. do i not care anymore? cuz if that's the case, something's terribly wrong with me. i must care. i know i do. and yet where does it show?
nowhere.
is this just what being normal is? not crying everyday. hoping it'll all be ok. not letting the emotions run wild.
seriously. there should be some crying. i just know it. but it doesn't come. just doesn't. what the hell does that mean?
i'm wondering whatever happened to me caring so much i couldn't stand it. that obsession with not letting something go. of always wanting to resolve things. i wonder if i've given that up.
where did it go? my efforts have gone to shit. i have done nothing...nothing. i haven't faught like hell to make things right. all this time...wasted. do i not care anymore? cuz if that's the case, something's terribly wrong with me. i must care. i know i do. and yet where does it show?
nowhere.
is this just what being normal is? not crying everyday. hoping it'll all be ok. not letting the emotions run wild.
seriously. there should be some crying. i just know it. but it doesn't come. just doesn't. what the hell does that mean?