I've been thinking a bit about why I'm having such a terrible time at work at the moment, as well as trying to figure out what vibes I was giving off that made the person in charge of the rota think that they could bully me ( Read more... )

I had my androgen-blocking injection today, which was one day overdue. I decided not to have it yesterday because of the GIC visit. Two stressful things in one day is... not good ( Read more... )

The past week has not been good. The previous weekend saw lots of self-harm and crying in private. On Thursday, there was lots of crying in front of my parents accompanied with lots of feeling down and being very fragile. I thought, instead of doing all that, I might try and talk about why I've been feeling that way, or at least see if all of ( Read more... )

I met someone who plays TF2 and they told me it was free to play via Steam. Since I have that installed because I was given Supreme Commander 2 for Christmas last year, I thought, what the hell, and I've been playing it for the last couple of weeks ( Read more... )

No trip to Oxford could be complete without a certain rumination about my past and how it affects my trans issues. I certainly had a lot of free time on my hands on my own while I was there, so I could think ( Read more... )

I was sent a link to the University of Oxford's disability section's request for people to work in a support role for disabled people through one of my mother's friend's daughters (that has got to be one of the most complex sentences I've constructed in a long time ( Read more... )

It's the middle of the night and I really can't sleep. I'm still feeling quite overwhelmed by a lot of things. I can't seem to find any real equilibrium, and I'm beginning to feel a lot like I was at the low point in Birmingham. I'm not really sure if this is a necessary flashback that will help me place things, or whether I'm just unnecessarily ( Read more... )

I hope I didn't worry anybody too much with the previous to last post. It wasn't meant to be that kind of post. The thing I always hate about flashbacks like that is that, no matter how much I've done to move away from any bad place I may have been in in the past, the memories remain, and when they hit me, I'm always the exact same person I was ( Read more... )

Right, you know how I was saying that I've been miserable recently, and that it followed my opening up about some topics? Well, today I need to elaborate on that a little. Sorry for more winging, but this is getting ridiculous, and I feel much better writing about it than not ( Read more... )

Last weekend my family and I, along with grandfather's lodgers, travelled down to my aunties, who live on the outskirts of the outskirts of Bognor Regis, where they run a hotel, to celebrate granddad's 90th birthday ( Read more... )