I have found someone that I had lost awhile ago and this could be a bad thing. I need to take care of her. I need to repair her emotions, help her back into the shell and hopefully she will go away again, never to come back ( Read more... )

I keep finding myself getting exxxtremely angry lately. I have no clue why and it's the stupidest stuff. Last night I got so mad it was painful and I wanted to cut deeply. Why? Because I try to to do what I think is best and give people what they want and try to please myself at the same time by not really accepting anything from others in a ( Read more... )

I feel like ending it with Kenny. I can't help it but feel used and I have no clue why. I spend less time with him and it saddens me. Although I tell him my feelings, all he will do is tell me I need to fix my thinking process and stop my shit. After that he comes right back to me and I don't know how not to hurt him. It's hard when you live ( Read more... )

*sigh* I have nothing to say just bored. Staying at my Mom's for the weekend for Mother's Day. BTW she makes wonderful food ( Read more... )

*So sick of being without you ( Read more... )

I wish I knew how to explain things to him. I just don't know myself. I do know that I do not enjoy the things that I used to and I think I've gained weight. I really feel fat and ugly ( Read more... )

When I look into the mirror the only thing that I see that I actually like is my eyes and the collar around my neck. I like the collar because it makes me feel like I actually belong somewhere and no place better then with Kenny ( Read more... )

I am so sick of the fact that everything that is healthy for you cost so god damn much. Then you hear on news that Americans are overweight and give out those expensive tips to lose it. People need self control, I say that about others but it seems like that's what I really need as well ( Read more... )

I so hate porn. I feel like I've been cheated on, my guy geting off on other chicks. And the fact that I can't get it though his head that it hurts me. He doesn't think if me when he does it that why. Selfish Bastard. I need him I wait for him, why can't he wait for me. I not very happy right now. I'm really hurting and I'm sad. I hate it, I do, I ( Read more... )

I finally got a job, I'm moving in with Kenny and I leaving my parents house. Although it's alittle degrading I don't care it's a job and it better than what I have now, nothing. Now I can plan on making some money, getting the thing I want and taking over my life (maybe the world). I hope this will be a good transition for everyone. I have to ( Read more... )