Hate is an option!!!!
I so hate porn. I feel like I've been cheated on, my guy geting off on other chicks. And the fact that I can't get it though his head that it hurts me. He doesn't think if me when he does it that why. Selfish Bastard. I need him I wait for him, why can't he wait for me. I not very happy right now. I'm really hurting and I'm sad. I hate it, I do, I do. So hurt. Want to leave him and never come back. This has crossed my lines. I don't want to deal with this again. I should just be by myself and let the guy "fuck off" to anybody he wants, that way it no hurt me and He doesn't get mad with me and say, "What's the big deal?". That way he doesn't have to hide it and he doesn't have to explain. I don't understand. I just not good enough for his mind's eye. "Stupid fuck", I tell myself. "you could never be eye candy".