Jun 02, 2005 17:16
I have found someone that I had lost awhile ago and this could be a bad thing. I need to take care of her. I need to repair her emotions, help her back into the shell and hopefully she will go away again, never to come back.
If anything has ever hurt Kenny in this relationship, that I have provoked, he is going to realize it can get worse. I have never let her escape while I have been with him, he actually was the only one to keep her at bay (lost in my mind's abyss).
I need to get her under control before she cuts me open. I have a feeling that if she can get to that point, that it will be very hard to put things back to normal. For when she is out and she has cut through, it's so relieving and orgasmic for me. For others it may be a little scary for another fact that she has almost killed me.
Kenny is just not making thing any better. SSSHHHHHH NO TALKING!
Where the hell does she come from, I know she has shown up in others as well. I wish the person who had given birth to her would die and hopefully take her existence with them as well.
I would love to cut her out, but that would give her only what she wants. She doesn't like it when I eat or sleep. She will punch you in the stomach if you eat and she will scare you awake but invading your hopefully peaceful dreams.