I'm gonna put all of what I just told James down and more. Start from friday. I rushed home from school, as I wanted to get out as soon as possible. Got ready and was out by 5pm. Got the bus at 5:10pm (being totally precise aren't I? Well no one really reads this anyway haha). Went to Spar to get coke and walked across the road when the 6 came ( Read more... )

So today... the year 11's left! And I didn't even manage to have my last cigarette at school with them all at break cos I had to go an see if Tina had finished her Drama Exam to go to the councillor! Nooo. So, went 1st period to her. My councillor I mean. I told her about the nightmares about my Dad leaving reoccuring and how I was only 2 but ( Read more... )

I was ready to put a happy update today... but since my Mum got home... I'm down again grrr. I've had so many ups and downs today. First I had English, where our teacher told us four people would be moved down a set... great. Meaning me. It's the only fucking top set I'm in. Then I had Sociology where I did fuck all. Then at break had a fag and ( Read more... )

So. Friday. I had a counsilling session. But what pissed me off was that for 2 sessions in a row, I've only had half an hour instead of an hour, and I had so much to get off my chest. Anyway, I told her how down I was feeling at the minute and how I miss a lot of friends who things have been really bad with lately. And just how I missed my Dad, and ( Read more... )

*Sigh*... so friday... went to Claires. Got very very drunk. We got off but then it just stopped. She thought her parents were going to come in or something at 1am. *Sigh* I totally don't get myself with Claire. Maybe I'm just looking for comfort or something but who knows. We both turned opposite ways, and I hardly got any sleep. Got up the next ( Read more... )

The worst thing is to have someone right there. Right next to you or online... someone who means the world to you... yet not be able to talk to them... not to want to push them away even further if that's possible...

So friday I got home to a lot of stress and got screamed at for no entire reason at all. So I just got what I needed and walked out. Went to me Sister's and later my stupid son of a bitch Mum turned up to have some of the barbeque we were having. Totally spoiled my night, she didn't go till like 1am, but I got extremely drunk with Ian. Phoned ( Read more... )