Can you handle me? It's sure gonna take a whole lotta strength my friend...
*Sigh*... so friday... went to Claires. Got very very drunk. We got off but then it just stopped. She thought her parents were going to come in or something at 1am. *Sigh* I totally don't get myself with Claire. Maybe I'm just looking for comfort or something but who knows. We both turned opposite ways, and I hardly got any sleep. Got up the next morning and watched 5 hours of tv with Claire, both being totally normal, taking the piss out of the "up-their-own-ass" people on tv then I went into town. It was... a strange day. I saw so many people... including Steef! Missed her so much, so talked to her for a bit. Saw Tom W... I just wanted to talk to him so much but thought better of it. I knew he wouldn't want me to, so... didn't really wanna make things worse. Hung out with Tina and Tom W, Alex, and Danny with a couple of other girls for a bit. We went to Costa and just smoked and talked. I just wanted to have a conversation with Tom W, but. Anyway, I asked if anyone knew what time the match started and he said "3pm" and that was it. But hmmm. Put on a smile, it actually looked like I was stalking him cos afterwards, I was walking to the bus stop which he happened to be doing to. Must of looked strange but I'm not a stalker lol... Saw Kyri too... he didn't say anything just... bye really. I asked for a hug, I got one, not a proper one though. I'm really going on here but I don't give a shit. Went to my Sister's and got drunk with Ian. I had stayed sober all day incase I saw Jacob/Kyri/Tom W. We watched Haloween H20 which was shit scary and went to bed. I texted Kyri for a bit. Got a shower in the morning and downstairs was a miserable tip from the night before. Ian had gone to work, and my Sister was in bed ill. So I did a major spring clean before getting picked up to go to my cousin's 3rd birthday at... White Post Farm. Yes it was shit. Saw my new baby cousin, and various other cousins which was good and saw some cute animals and had a laugh with the guys but all in all I was bored. Got home though now... read some peoples livejournals... Steefs isn't all that good. But, who knows, maybe one day people will accept me right? I hope Andrew's alright, he sounds really down lately... think I'm gonna go to bed pretty soon. Just curl up in a ball and read or write some shit poetry. Yes it's 6:30pm but nevermind. I really wanna get my Italian Exchange photos printed and put in a photo album, not that I ever have the time. Also some pics of my friends, of when I was a kid, and other such random photos as I just love them all so much! I don't care if this update was a wierd, retarded, moaning entry either. x Lottie x