Get a job at a bank. Go to a winery on the weekend. Learn to drive. Get a pet. Order the wagyu steak. Take yourself out for ice cream. Buy expensive French flax linen bedding. Tell yourself it’s all about love, and love is service of others. Every now and then, encounter something to hold onto and remind you life is worth living, like a flower ( Read more... )

None of it meant anything ( Read more... )

I’ve been trying ( Read more... )

Your turmoil is never about me ( Read more... )

I used to be scared of crossing the street ( Read more... )

Each time I see you, I have physical evidence of hurt ( Read more... )

I miss you in a groundless way ( Read more... )

Each failed intimacy makes my body feel more alien to itself ( Read more... )

Our world was too insular. I never saw you in the context of the outside world. Maybe I liked that. It made me feel special to you, like the rest of the world didn't matter. But it does. It matters much more than me ( Read more... )

I wonder about myself. I wonder about myself constantly ( Read more... )