well today i woke up and i was sore from head to toe. i had a really bad sore throat, my neck hurt, i had a headache. so i woke up since i slept like crap cause of my neck, i could barely move enough to get out of bed. so i got up, got dressed, ate breakfast, was burning up while doin all of this. so i went to school anyways. later i finally went ( Read more... )

Well yesterday I went up to Portland with matt, Nate, Christopher, Alex, and Cody. Of course this is the same Cody that I was talking about on Friday night and I felt stupid for not making a move then. Well for the first 95% of the trip I had Gabe in the car cause we were taken him home there by Portland. Well after we left Gabe's house, Nate tells ( Read more... )

ok tonight or today, which ever way you want to put it, i met this really great guy. i mean he has been through alot of crap that i have been through too so we have somethings to relate on. well we had a good conversation today and then tonight when i felt like he wanted to make a move, i was too dang scared to make a move too. i mean i felt like i ( Read more... )

1.1 Life is filled with so many characteristics, characteristics of pain, sorrow, joy, confusion, love, nervousness, and intimidation ( Read more... )

pain seems to come from so many different places. like my friend emily last night was completely for me about this and then today she is completely against and doesnt really udnerstand everything about it i guess. and to add to it, my ex girlfriend now is confused as to why i even acted like something was goin to happen and why for the last four ( Read more... )

well today i couldnt keep goin about lying to my gf. i have been tryin all week. i just couldnt make up some random lie about why, i just had to tell her the truth. she was completely blown away about me likin guys but i couldnt lie. i have always known so i how could i keep her goin with something that would never be true on my end of the ( Read more... )

the amazing event that i am talkin about is the fact of what i did last night. last night i told my mom about my life, the life that i have been hiding since i was in middle school cause it "wasnt acceptable" at my dad's house. i told her flat out that i liked guys and have since middle school. the best thing about it though is what she told me. ( Read more... )

all i know is that life can really make decisions hard for someone who doesnt know whats gonna happen in life. i have met two guys that are really great and are becoming great friends in my life, but i dontk wo how to tell my family about them or my life. i know that my dad wont like it and probably be really mad at me and who knows what else he ( Read more... )

well i dont know what im gonna write about right now but i know that somethings have been on my mind lately. alot of it has to do with some friends of mine and some new friends that i have met. i just cant belive some of the ppl that you can meet on here and how varied they are in there life. one thing that seems to be everywhere and im sure that ( Read more... )

to some ppl life isnt that big of a deal and i know that to be true. sadly i have been like that at times in my life. i have hurt peoples feelings to make me feel better ( Read more... )