I think about what Im going to say in the shower. Its a ritual of sorts and not a very healthy one. I think of the funny things to say. I toss things out and work on things like an old comedian. i try and remember who i said what to and who I can repeat it to who hasnt heard it yet. Its like a soft shoe act thats getting old but im trying to ( Read more... )

You journal and smoke a cigarette of course ( Read more... )

Its quite stupid(since I cant spell the r word) how sad and silent I get at night just cause I havent talked to Aj during the day. can you love a person too much? I used to think that the way to tell if you truly love someone was if it was the end of the world when you broke up? But to see that you would have to break up and my logic didn;t make ( Read more... )

Oh lover dear ( Read more... )

Do I'm reading this book called Escaping Into The Open. Its pretty good. Its a book on writing and I love the way this woman talks. Its like I can hear her and i totally get into books like that. Anyways it has little homework assignments and I did one. And I did it about my grandmother. And now I feel just awful. I miss her so much. Life just ( Read more... )

All my life I've wanted to live in the 1700's in England. Specifically around the late late 1700's and early 18. And always in Scotland or Ireland or England. If color wasn't a matter back then I would always dream myself to be like a countess or even just a regular girl. I would wear pretty beautiful normal dresses and go to balls and be ( Read more... )

Sleeping on a wooden floor is not the best for a goodnights rest let me tell ya. But it was okay. Me and Britt woke up this morning unwillingly and started to do her laundry so we could go to the mall with Jackie. Unfourtanely we didn't get to go to the mall with Jackie but we did go...or try. Brittany is a 5'3" girl who drives a huge hella of a ( Read more... )

today was such a long ass day and i wanna be really detailed about it...but probably not. I woke up got dressed went to school tried to fix my crappy mousetrap car(which me, Tim, Brandon and farrah(sp?) had to build a whole new nother one which is awesome!!!!! but we were up there till like 6:30 and I know miss duell is gonna write me up and give ( Read more... )

juuuuuust kidding, today I went shopping for Xmas presents and I bought almost every ones...I spent 3hours in the mall by myself and let me tell u it was exhilarating. And the time flew and I didn't even notice it. I liked it so much..and im so glad with everything I bought and I hope u all love ur gifts!! and if u dont its okay i'll try harder ( Read more... )

I havent even begun to finish mouse trap car...or start it. I really need to get on that. Ive been asleep for like 5hrs when i got home and you know the first thing i did when i woke..start thinking about aj and crying about school and how i wish i could quit. How pathetic do I feel? a lot but i dont care....i miss my boyfriend school sucks really ( Read more... )