How pathetic do I feel?
I havent even begun to finish mouse trap car...or start it. I really need to get on that. Ive been asleep for like 5hrs when i got home and you know the first thing i did when i woke..start thinking about aj and crying about school and how i wish i could quit. How pathetic do I feel? a lot but i dont care....i miss my boyfriend school sucks really badly im alienating all my friends( for tips on how to do that its easy- just be bitchy to em one day and then nice the next) and its not like im doing it on purpose but it just feels like theres nothing i can do to stop the words outta my mouth and sometimes....i just dont want to. I miss my grandma....i really wish God let people come back every once in a while because I would love having her this Christmas season. She would help me so much and not having her is killing me and I dont think too many people realize that. Not having her, not talking to the one person who makes me so happy no matter what(aj) and alienating my friends. Seems like my holiday is gonna be great. Well it is because ive decided to follow the path ofnorah and live like im going to be dead at Christmas saying and being and doing as if i was gonna die Christmas...because im tired of holding shit in and just letting the stupid shit out. So here i go...