Why haven't I learnt how to spell ridiclious yet??
Its quite stupid(since I cant spell the r word) how sad and silent I get at night just cause I havent talked to Aj during the day. can you love a person too much? I used to think that the way to tell if you truly love someone was if it was the end of the world when you broke up? But to see that you would have to break up and my logic didn;t make too much sense to me. It does now though. Its not the end of the world if me and Alex did break up. But it would be the end of my world as of yet. And as much as I complain and as miserable as I am sometimes it actually is worth it. Pro and Con lists, my heart + my head, they can't all lie at the same time. Plus theres just that feeling I get when he answers the phone or I answer the phone or hopefully when I see him for the first time in a couple of weeks. That "hey" that just sets my mouth into this wide elastic grin; that pushes my cheeks to color and raises my temparture up just a bit. Yeah, all that makes all the other bullshit equal out and surpass pretty damn well.
::sigh:: i still want to talk to him tomorrow though. Im only human.
Im hosting a dinner party on Tuesday. I honestly dont know what the hell i was thinking hosting this thing and I dont know if im more excited than terrified. Ive realized that all of these people have so many different tastes. I think ive come up with a good combination of things. Lets hope and pray I can pull it off. If all else fails I can always order pizza. Plus I invited my friend Robert from work and he's old enough to bring things for daquris(jeez get a spell book rambo).
Have I mentioned how much I want to get married. How badly I really really want that. And not so much for the wedding and all the blah blah shit but for the fact that is a commitment I take really seriously and I just feel so safe with that kind of commitment. I dont really believe in divorce. I just believe in truly making sure you and that person can be married together. I mean promblems happen. You just gotta ask "Is it all worth it?"
YES ::dances a happy in love dance:::
Now back to your regular porn watching
::sigh:: i still want to talk to him tomorrow though. Im only human.
Im hosting a dinner party on Tuesday. I honestly dont know what the hell i was thinking hosting this thing and I dont know if im more excited than terrified. Ive realized that all of these people have so many different tastes. I think ive come up with a good combination of things. Lets hope and pray I can pull it off. If all else fails I can always order pizza. Plus I invited my friend Robert from work and he's old enough to bring things for daquris(jeez get a spell book rambo).
Have I mentioned how much I want to get married. How badly I really really want that. And not so much for the wedding and all the blah blah shit but for the fact that is a commitment I take really seriously and I just feel so safe with that kind of commitment. I dont really believe in divorce. I just believe in truly making sure you and that person can be married together. I mean promblems happen. You just gotta ask "Is it all worth it?"
YES ::dances a happy in love dance:::
Now back to your regular porn watching