Why should I even believe I'll get that certain someone back in my life when I haven't heard from them for some months now.. Give me one reason or reasons why I should live.. What did I do to deserve this hurt and confusion??? I give space and some understanding on why things happened the way they did.. But, I still don't know why would you throw ( Read more... )

I've realized I have yet updated recently.. I've been scarying myself away from doing so because I don't want to say something on here that I may regret. Or, even say something that'll lead me into tears that I try so hard to keep under control from pouring out. You'd think tho I'd feel comfortable saying anything, since this is my LJ and I've been ( Read more... )

Good Weekend that's for sure! Having the time to spend with some best buds and just getting away from home made it great. I didn't fully get to talk one on one with some folks after all, but it's all good. Did get to vent, hear the updates on things with them, and just keep buildin a friendship with them. I think right now they are a big part of my ( Read more... )

Sux when you only got one person on the brain and they seem to never show any interest in you anymore. I swear things were mutual and I just don't understand how you ignore feelings/thoughts. Silence maybe works out for you, but it just causes more hurt and confusion. I'm not sure if I'm lookin forward to this 2006, but what else can I do. Part of ( Read more... )

Wow= This pain/hurt will never seem to fully go away.. Umm..talkin to a friend online and they're talkin about how the other broke up with them and they're pretty much just retellin what I went through or my reactions to a similar case. I'm still struggling and it's hard to give advice to something that I couldn't/still can't even bear for myself. ( Read more... )

Seems a lot of the times others just ignored me and never allowed me a second chance or gave me lil of a reasurrance that things can get back to what was or close to it. I just miss those memories we shared, our get togethers over holiday breaks when everyone's home from college, our fun during the summers.. times that we actually able to be ( Read more... )

I'm hurt more than anyone could ever know or feel.. Am I just crazy to ever believe those moments were ever real. I know I didn't dream you into life or was ever ***king high. What happened to now & then keeping in touch or what happened on believing that things could of worked out. You're the only one that I've ever felt this way for and I can't ( Read more... )

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Would love to update more before headin off to bed.. but, let's say in few words "my heart needs a life to mend because it's still in many pieces" Oh and-- I got accept to Frostburg University.. the way things been going around here.. I may just end up goin there. Huh.. the transfer dude is still waitin for my reply back to his call.. he was ( Read more... )

Limping like crazy.. my left leg is killin me and my right arm is pretty sore from last night bowling. Go figure! But, oh well.. Today, is going pretty good so far. Guess, we'll see how things go from here on. Update in more detail later on tonight! Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend so far!! I'm out lookin for something to do and keep this ( Read more... )