Then there is no reason to live... my heart yearns for someone who I can never have..

[rykengirl2003]

I'm hurt more than anyone could ever know or feel.. Am I just crazy to ever believe those moments were ever real. I know I didn't dream you into life or was ever ***king high. What happened to now & then keeping in touch or what happened on believing that things could of worked out. You're the only one that I've ever felt this way for and I can't just say it never happened. I know that many wouldn't think it was right or some people in the same situation never completely worked out/have hard times, but what about those who have..?? I can't stop thinkin of the memories we shared. Those memories haunt me in my sleep and haunt me during the day as I zone out and day dream. Please don't just throw all that away or leave me here completely in the dust to never speak to me again. I know maybe all this silence is so that I could just face the truth you say on us can't being together and soon we could work back up a friendship. Just.. there's always going to be a part of me that loves you so much and can't stop thinking of you. I guess that side of me needs to learn to hide or continue to just move on, so that I can at least continue the great friendship we made this past summer.

Please tell me.. that what we had was something and reasure me that this silence is what is planned so we could later bring a friendship back to life. I'm sorry that I still believe in us.. But, truly I want to build or continue our friendship!

Guess all I can say is.. hope all is going well in ur life and things are workin out with you and you know who.. a lucky person they are, that's for sure! I realized now on one person I need to apologize because it was even wrong for me to believe I guess that things between us would work out.. if you know what I mean.. tell them I'm sorry and I definitely know what hurt I brought on to them. Please, let's chat soon..