So, I was looking over my philosophy notes, attempting to study... more like laughing at my doodles. Anyway, I came across this poem, every time I read it I get a different feeling from it... I thought it was pretty decent for something I wrote in class. Since this is my journal, I'm posting it ... its untitled, and the term "slept with" means just ( Read more... )

i am drunk and i think i might puke... milwalkie's best is the worst... dude, i think i might puke. did i already say that? fuck... i am so fucking drunk.. fuck everything except HIM ... i love him, i love him. he's sittting next to me now... why can't he feel my heart beat? why can't  he see the sadness in my face? why can't he understand?

WAIT!! ( Read more... )

HeY-Lo! So, the last time I wrote was the day after my birthday... about a week ago... Let me tell you 19 feels the same as all of the other ages did. I haven't been up to too much... we only watched movies 3 days last week: Blow, Boondock Saints, and Gattica. Last night we watched Ocean's Eleven and Saturday (for lack of anything else to do) Ryan ( Read more... )

What a beautiful day? Actually this whole week has been pretty beautiful... I'm just waiting for the stupid snow to come and ruin my life, lol. I HATE SNOW!

Anyway, I started writing this entry for a reason, but I don't remember what it was? lol What a moron I can be sometimes, hehe. Anyway, I had a pretty kickass week: Sunday I came back from my ( Read more... )

Wow, its been a hell of a long time since I last wrote. Things have been going... both ways actually: good and bad. For the most part, though, things have been going well. I've been putting up with a lot of other people's shit for my own personal emotions and decided after this past weekend that I need to stop feeling so damn much, but all is ( Read more... )

This is the first time I've been in a good mood for a long time. Unfortunetly I'm happy for reasons that I can already see fading away. But you know what? I'm slowly accepting my fate as the girl that no one really wants to be with. I'm sorta like that song Elmo sings when he takes a trip to the ocean "Its a nice place to visit but I wouldn't wanna ( Read more... )

It has been the most terribly, emotionally draining week of my life... Every time I turn around something else is wrong or needs my attention. I am so, sO, SO glad today is Thursday and I only have one class tomorrow... I was thinking about driving out of town but I'm not so sure what I want to do anymore, it all depends on the reason I want to ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want or don't want? I'm so lost and confused... I feel like I'm looking for a quick fix at every turn and yet I never find any sort of fix. Lately everyone wants to talk about love, relationships, and all that shit... what the hell? How come the moment I stop being an optimist and see the world for what it really is, everyone ( Read more... )

Yeah, so that quote is really great. I like it a lot, more true words have never been spoken. I had a really eventful day, emotionally any way. I sort of let go of something that was really holding me down, okay let's be honest, I didn't really let go of it so much as loosened my attachment to it. Its really hard to deal with everything, especially ( Read more... )

Well, here I am again... more thoughts than I can handle. I don't know why I continue to write in this journal, its ruining me. People read my thoughts and change their opinions of me and ultimately find something about my inner personality that they do not like. Whatever though, I mean if you don't like me for who I really am, then I don't want to ( Read more... )