YOU! .... Watch it! (tribute to Cassie-Marie)
It has been the most terribly, emotionally draining week of my life... Every time I turn around something else is wrong or needs my attention. I am so, sO, SO glad today is Thursday and I only have one class tomorrow... I was thinking about driving out of town but I'm not so sure what I want to do anymore, it all depends on the reason I want to leave.
I was recently asked who the first person I was ever in love with was, and while I've been speculating about it for a while, I've finally decided I've never been in real love. Although the more I think about the whole situation the more I start to think maybe I was falling in love with the person that asked me? Blah, what am I talking about, I don't even know what love is, and from the looks of it, its something I could do without. It makes people do some crazy shit and let go of good, sure things in their lives for a few moments of happiness and a lifetime of pain.
Has anyone ever told you that you're beautiful, inside and out? And I mean really beautiful, I'm not talking about your grandmother and her friends, I mean someone close to your age, of the opposite sex. And a few moments after they told you how beautiful and wonderful you are they break things off with you? Why is that? Didn't their proclaiming your beauty make you think that you were someone special? And then didn't you wonder how they could say such things and be breaking it off with you? It's like, if I'm so beautiful and great, why don't you want to be with me?
So, my question is, if I am so beautiful and great how come no one wants to be with me? When did I become this contagious leper that any guy within a 100 mile radious is too afraid to catch? Just so you know, I'm a great person and even though I question myself a lot, especially lately, I know that I'm great. And I don't mean a conceded great, I just mean a genuinely good person with a huge heart. If you can't appreciate someone that is willing to care about you forever, then you suck. And yes, I do think you suck and no, I don't want to be friends, and no I don't want to hear about any other rediculous girls in your stupid life. SHE let you go, I am not her... why am I being punished for her idiotic-ness (and yes it's a word). I'd hate to love you but I'll never forget. Goodbye...